Years apart
Laziness is sometimes a gift. Picking up what you previously lost, only to find once more its joys and misteries... that's the unsung glory of laziness - Helena Falend, in her Letter of Longing
Dear Journal,
I did not think anyone would write anything in here any more, but I reminisced those great, horrible, intense, excruciating, beautiful days on our Sapphire Sword and in our (sorry, Miyun's!) chest. And I remembered how weirdly fulfilling it was to write it all down on these flimsy pieces of paper. It got hard at the end, because of the small incident of my blinding, but I found people with the right attitude to write things down for me (people who would not openly judge).
Today, I found such an impartial soul again, her name is Lena, she's one of my closest Sisters, sisters of the Order of the Black Sapphire, that is. Yes, dear journal, I finally did it. A magical order for the frail sex. Someone had to do it, eventually. Let Tallion have his manly Ionolian order. I have my little tower overlooking the Bay of Alomir, and my 40 Sisters.
Seeing as I am falling directly into my greatest journal-writing sin of all time - messiness - I will try to structure some coherent thoughts as well.
First, it's been a great while since i last wrote in here. I have some scribbled notes about the great last battle - the battle of the Tower. Somehow, I don't want to finish them, but I know I must. Too much pain in those pages, I have to say. Even compared to what was before... And there is so much beauty in this world to write about now... I just can't do it. Not with all those dark thoughts consuming me at night.
I never truly recovered. As expected. What I last saw with my own eyes will forever haunt my dreams, and those voices... they will never go silent. For now, though, I'm not too worried. I have plenty of reasons to smile and keep the voices well at bay.
You see, dear journal, the incredible occured - Eve Parion, bane of humans, Elves, Strygians and all races big and small, somehow wound up a mother! To a healthy child, hopefully bearing as few traits from her mother as possible. Her name is Fiona. It was Bart's idea for a name. It is a beautiful name, and rather rare, to be honest. I wouldn't have thought of it. I, for one, could only think of symbolic names, stupidities, bookworm instincts. Why should a child be cursed with a weird name because a parent has nothing better to do? That being said, I am secretly jealous of Tallion's talent of keeping the memory of his friends and family. He named his first-born Rydaspis Bajid Almas. A mouthful, but a beautiful one at that.
My little girl is just Fiona. She was born in a time of peace, a time of joy, even if not of plenty. The world, shattered as it was, is recovering. It's not easy, it's not sudden. But it's quite fast, to be honest. Well, my little Fiona is most of my world now, anyway. And she's growing very, very fast. She's more than one year old! She was born on 19 November 859. Yeah... it's insane how fast time flies by.
She's everything I probably wasn't: cute, quiet, a joyous smile, always laughing at her parent's shenanigans. Bart especially knows how to entertain her. He's such a sweet father. I always knew he would be a good one. Hehe.
I very rarely let go of Fiona. I either carry her around in my arms or in my all purpose crib. I am quite confident with navigating around nowadays, blind as I am. Especially in the tower, I have formed this mental map, and can quite easily trace my steps. Still, Bart helps me a lot and the Sisters also provide invaluable help. It's not easy when the mother is both blind and clumsy.
I'm quite proud of her, dear journal. And proud of us. We overcame this great war. Of course... Darkness remains. In my case, wounds that will never, ever heal. Not just my eyes. But especially that. Bart and Fiona make me love life, but without them... I can't even imagine what that would have been like. Sometimes I wonder... How are the others coping? Are they feeling down? Are they troubled by the many monsters of our past? Not all of them have company, people who understand them, who went through the same thing... Verfys disappeared somewhere, God knows where... All alone. Tallion.... He's not that far away, but he's busy, we saw him twice, I think, after we broke up the party, and we hear from him only from time to time. He seems happy, but I know it can't be easy to rebuild Ionolia amidst all those ruins bearing so many memories.... Even Marc, with all his optimism, must be feeling down many times. You know, he still is alone. No wife or family for him right now. He's quite the adventurer now, always first to go on explorations and more recently diplomatic missions to the Continent! I gave him a secret task to find out more about Verfy. Maybe she's still around there somewhere.
I may be happy here, in spite of my literal demons, but I often think about the others. We didn't exactly part on the best of terms. After that ugly business in the Continent with Zarkuz's pirates, we fought the undead and prevailed, but... it felt forced... We were all utterly spent, sick of each other somehow.... We parted ways and it all felt so empty, but in the same time there was a semblance of peace. It was finally over. Maybe all our collective pains made it too hard to stay together. I don't know. Here in Alomir we have quite the working community. Damaschini sunk himself into his leadership role, and he seems to be quite happy and fulfilled. I'm glad for him. Miyun got to become a queen of sorts, as she jokes, queen of the underworld. She's growing fast, too fast perhaps, hah. And Marc, as I said, is around and helps Damaschini a lot.
To be fair, the more I think about these things, the sadder I get. There's a very sour taste in my mouth whenever I think of that period, right after the battle at the Tower. I miss them.
Maybe I should invite Tallion next Independence day.
Oh, I haven't mentioned my Bart is now a full-time politician! He was some kind of First Diplomat, a counselor for Damaschini, and now he's in the Great Gathering, elected by the people and whatnot. He has a group of people called a party, and he won some votes, and now he's very busy as a result... It's not like he's doing that much right now. I am supportive, but to me it seems like a waste of his time. Time better spent would be time spent with me and FIona.... :)
But a man's ambition is a man's ambition.
I am a hypocrite, of course, because I also did my own party-thing, but not for politics, but for protecting the island. My order of the Black Sapphire protects Alomir from any unwanted guests, and I plan to make it an active order as well. In time, we will send our members to other countries to help them against disease, disasters, necromancers, monsters, whatever. We will also explore and find out more about the world... Big dreams. But hey, I came quite far with this order so far. I'm astonished. So who knows?
Hm, the celebrations for this year's Starfall festival are starting. Better join them. I hope Lullaby and Rafil are well. At night, I ofter think of them too.
Well, off I go. This felt good.
Wherever you are, I hope you will smile tonight. Nixie, Verfy, Tallion, Kelly, Vas, Iz. I know the rest are smiling at us from up above.
May the Almighty protect us all.
Eve's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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1. Unilateral thinking
11 June 858 AC
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2. I love peaches
12 June 858 AC
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3. Mannerisms
16 June 858 AC
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4. Toy
21 June 858 AC
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5. The sea is vast
22 June 858 AC
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6. Black and White
26 June 858 AC
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7. The Lady and the Sheets
28 June 858 AC
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Well it's been a while
29 June 858 AC
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Magic-men
1 July 858 AC
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Last straw?
3 July 858 AC
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Bittersweet
6 July 858 AC
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Trials
9th July 858 AC
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Cheeky
9 July 858 AC
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No good
9 July 585 AC
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Long baths - not alone
11 June 858 AC
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Strength and hugs
13 July 858 AC
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Who is heading us?
14 July 858
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Dear Nixie
14 July 858
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Where are we heading?
13 July 858
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Hideouts
22 July 585
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Home
25 July 858
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The fight begins
3 August 858 AC
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Fire and Water
6 August 858 AC
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A little thought for my captain
6 August 858 AC
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Enneth
9 August 858 AC
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Smile
18 August 858 AC
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Our journey south begins
23 August 858 AC
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Sick
27 August 858
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Betrayal
1 September 858 AC
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Through flame and demons
15 September 858 AC
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None shall stop it
18 September 858 AC
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More friends than foes
29 September 858 AC
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Night Encroaching
30 September 858 AC
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Fish
5 October 858 AC
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What is real death?
10 October 858 AC
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As Above, so Below
10 October 858 AC
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Let loose the dogs of Hell
10 October 858 AC
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Trappings
11 October 858 AC
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The message
13 October 858 AC
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Eenie-Meeny-Miney-Moe
6 November 858 AC
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Deep cuts
11 November 858 AC ?
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Sapphire Sword
11 November 858 AC ?
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Respite
16 November 858 AC
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Heirs
27 november 858 AC
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Multiple chances, multiple minds
25 December 858 AC
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The Rains of Dusk
13 Apr 2022 08:49:09
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The Speech
12 January 859 AC
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Where we make our stand
13 January 859 AC
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Our finest day
16 January 859 AC
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Towards the last steps
19 May 2022 02:52:35
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The Battle at the Tower (2)
12 Jul 2022 10:14:55
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The Battle at the Tower (1)
1 February 859 AC
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Years apart
22 January 861
11 June 858 AC
12 June 858 AC
16 June 858 AC
21 June 858 AC
22 June 858 AC
26 June 858 AC
28 June 858 AC
29 June 858 AC
1 July 858 AC
3 July 858 AC
6 July 858 AC
9th July 858 AC
9 July 858 AC
9 July 585 AC
11 June 858 AC
13 July 858 AC
14 July 858
14 July 858
13 July 858
22 July 585
25 July 858
3 August 858 AC
6 August 858 AC
6 August 858 AC
9 August 858 AC
18 August 858 AC
23 August 858 AC
27 August 858
1 September 858 AC
15 September 858 AC
18 September 858 AC
29 September 858 AC
30 September 858 AC
5 October 858 AC
10 October 858 AC
10 October 858 AC
10 October 858 AC
11 October 858 AC
13 October 858 AC
6 November 858 AC
11 November 858 AC ?
11 November 858 AC ?
16 November 858 AC
27 november 858 AC
25 December 858 AC
13 Apr 2022 08:49:09
12 January 859 AC
13 January 859 AC
16 January 859 AC
19 May 2022 02:52:35
12 Jul 2022 10:14:55
1 February 859 AC
22 January 861
The major events and journals in Eve's history, from the beginning to today.
Years apart
[i]Laziness is sometimes a gift. Picking up what you previously lost, only to find once more its joys and misteries... that's the unsung glory of laziness[/i] - Helena Falend, in her Letter of Longing Dear Journal, I did not think anyone would write...
11:37 pm - 27.08.2023The Battle at the Tower (2)
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10:14 pm - 12.07.2022The Battle at the Tower
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01:53 pm - 12.07.2022Towards the last steps
"Do. Then you may die" - inscription on the Tower of the Ilmenites in Soldinia It's early morning in the camp. Anevys was awake and seeing me up she asked me if I wanted to finish my journal. Hah, look at her. She knew I had wanted to write a little mo...
11:49 pm - 18.05.2022Our finest day
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11:49 pm - 16.05.2022The Speech
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01:41 pm - 18.04.2022Where we make our stand
Dear journal, ...
01:29 pm - 18.04.2022The Rains of Dusk
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02:07 pm - 13.04.2022Multiple chances, multiple minds
"[i]More of the same / Blinded and lame / Spinning around / Darkness abound / More of the same / Weakened and tame / Making no sound / [b]We[/b] are abound[/i]" Dear journal, Courtesy of our dear Anevys, whom I thank right now as I dictate these wor...
02:38 pm - 08.04.2022Demon-human
Hi journal I found out I'm a demon-human now what is a demon-human you ask I don't know I call me demon-human because it seems that I am a human but I also have some kind of demon influence and it's not Xantinya. I was very confused because well I didn...
07:30 pm - 21.03.2022Heirs
"Legacy can be embraced. It can be negated, it can be torn to pieces, or enhanced. It can even be forgotten, but never by the ones that turn out to carry it" - Lores I, king of Golas, in his Memoirs. Dear journal, Here I am wasting my last remaining...
08:12 am - 26.02.2022Respite
"To the thousands of pure-hearted men and women who dedicated their lives to others, who renounced all worldy goods and desires, but the desire to do Good onto people, and who were rightly elevated to the great name of saints, I find myself posing only on...
06:54 pm - 25.02.2022Sapphire Sword
I dreamt I was back on the ship, while we were all asleep from the gas. So now somehow I can't stop thinking about it. I re-read the entries from when we were about to leave Alomir. Little did we know... I was only spewing my nonsense. We would spend 3 an...
03:29 pm - 11.02.2022Pain cuts deep
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06:23 pm - 08.02.2022Ini-Mini-Mani-Mo
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02:04 am - 30.01.2022The creepy underground of Vatan Aarmodar, not really a place I'd like to stay.. Funny thing is, this is where we will hang out for the next days, so might as well get used. (this is like an instant painting which is 100% like reality, it's called "taking a picture" - cute)
858 After the CouncilThe message
"Gather, Men of Faith as you are. Faithful you may not be, or just, or pure. We are all sullied. But we are of Faith, and it owns us all. That is how we shall march" - Illien the Great, at the end of his Call, the letter gathering the Ael Velle. Seriou...
11:59 pm - 23.01.2022Trappings
"War, war and stone, slash its iron in their bone" - chant of the Orcish army besieging the great city of Cledon, Xaxoria. Hello, journal. Once again i come back to the same place, this wretched pile of paper. Today i thought of something. You ARE u...
09:04 pm - 17.01.2022Let loose the dogs of Hell
"Do onto the self only the highest Art / So they can't tell you and statues apart" - alleged rime sang by an old servant to the last governor of Alghazia, Gava. Many of the old jokes are coming back to me. Old jokes told by people long ago, when the wo...
05:20 am - 12.01.2022As Above, so Below
"History is linear. Histories, however, are circular" Ventyr Manteks, in his [i]On the Ael Velle[/i] Dear journal, This should not start with "I", as many entries here seem to do. It's supposed to be my journal, yes, but there's little room left for...
11:52 pm - 08.12.2021.
858 After the CouncilWhat is real death?
"If thinking is living, forgetting is killing" - Great Ordinator Vares Narbon, first line of his inaugural speech at the Xth Council Dear journal, I'm in the middle of a gigantic battlefield that only now is starting to calm down. I am tired, but I'...
03:38 pm - 02.12.2021Fish
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07:50 pm - 23.11.2021Night Encroaching
"Are Life and Death really enemies? I think only one who goes through both has an answer. A shame we can't ask them" - Rivet Manakos, in his book "Great Omen" Dear journal, I write in here with a weak hand. I... I don't have much left in me to give,...
10:34 pm - 16.11.2021More friends than foes
"If you look up and count your foes, you will bear them all your life. I counted friends, and they kept multiplying" Conrad I of Worania, upon facing off Falsnor XII of Rascodia before the battle of Tora. Dear journal, I feel physically weak, but I'...
01:59 pm - 08.11.2021None shall stop it
"A done thing is as foreign and terrifying to man as the realm of the Devils" - Illien the Great, in his Letters to a Better Man Dear journal, I write this as we sail towards Roib, the volcano-island. It's been a more than busy couple of days. In fa...
03:39 pm - 24.10.2021Through flame and demons
„We like to think demons don’t exist, so we could feel in control. But we also love to think every sin we make is never our fault” Arion of Malzines, in his Letters Dear journal, I’m a little bit conflicted about writing in you right now. Shoul...
12:41 pm - 19.10.2021Betrayal
"Were they true, the imaginations of civilization? Or is man just a high beast?" Termi Hasap, in his Considerations on the Fall of Gava Dea... Filthy journal I hate. Ah, I can't hate you. I can't love you either, though. You record all my successes ...
01:15 am - 07.10.2021Sick
"Man can only follow gods and lies" - Leri-an of Idemo, shortly before the battle of Kamar with the Gavans Dear journal, once again I find myself returning from a funeral. It was a particularly somber one, for it was carried out mostly by the Elves of ...
02:20 pm - 20.09.2021Our journey south begins
"Do what you must, but never forget the flanks" - King Torian II of Worania to his son, shortly before the battle of Vacspon. Dear journal, I wanted to write in you sooner, but I've been feeling a little off. In the end, I decided to write something...
09:34 pm - 05.09.2021We found this weird marking in the priest's house by the temple in Riponia. I wonder what it might mean.
858 After the CouncilSmile
"My greatest treasure is a kindred heart." - Illien the Great in his [i]Letters to a Better Man[/i] Dear journal, I'm so extatic!! I have much to say, but actually I don't think I need many words. Drenizek lives! It's been a crazy journey to resc...
08:34 pm - 23.08.2021Enneth
"[i]Entwined paths may never break[/i]" - old Ionolian saying Dear journal, Not too many days have passed since I last wrote here and I already feel my hand heavy with thoughts to put on paper. It's been... quite intense. I am currently sitting on a...
08:16 pm - 23.08.2021A little thought for my captain
"The hare and the tortoise raced. The hare reached no ground, for in no time it could have so done. The tortoise strived all the way; and it won" - 3rd tale of Theme Dear journal, It's nighttime now. Bart is sleeping like a baby. I found something ...
09:50 pm - 28.07.2021Fire and Water
"That vast sea awaits us, in the end, and they say the boat only has room enough for one" Aedyra Vantior, in her [i]To the Great Shore[/i]. Dear journal, I have to say there's barely a day on this ship that is not eventful in its own way. Certainly ...
07:42 pm - 25.07.2021A new way back home
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12:24 pm - 17.07.2021Home
"Sene thei Ftheis nel Nerthi" - the Elves upon seeing their world for the first time Dear journal, I am writing to you in the most beautiful place the world had to offer us. I feel so very tired, sad, happy, relieved and worried, all in the same tim...
09:53 pm - 13.07.2021Hideouts
"Seek an enemy hard enough, and you'll find him a friend. The reverse also applies" - Kretos Mapsyion, in his [i]On the Rules of Law and Politics[/i] Dear journal, I haven't written here in a while. I was saving it for something more, but in the en...
09:43 pm - 11.07.2021Dear Nixie
I write this letter in a late hour. You will probably not understand why, at first. But I know you will, in time. It's so weird I probably don't entirely comprehend it either, now. But I can't waste ink and paper on that. I wanted to write you about so...
09:22 pm - 09.07.2021Who is heading us?
"I trembled as I lifted the scepter. For me, it was heavier than mountains. Heavier than promises" - king Laren I of Vormiol, in his Memoirs Dear journal, Today was a hectic day yet. And this time we didn't fight. After that horrifying 13th of July,...
10:10 pm - 06.07.2021Where are we heading?
"The mountains of the world are obstructed by the hills of our own mind" - Great Ordinator Illien the Great in his Letters to a Better Man Dear journal, It's late in the night, and I can't really sleep. Again, right? I don't know what to say first. ...
09:52 pm - 05.07.2021Learned the blessing of healing touch
That was an undescribable feeling. I hope I can do it again. I want to protect everyone on this ship with it. But I still want Bart to hug me
858 After the CouncilGot together with Bart
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858 After the CouncilFirst Blood
"The tide ebbs. Why don't you have faith in Him?" - Illien the Great, during the battle for Fools' Peninsula Dear journal, I am a little tired, but I want to write in you as much as I can. It was not the easiest of days... You see, the last coupl...
04:50 pm - 20.06.2021Long baths - not alone
"Brave the black shores, and don't look back towards the light; it will shine trough you" - Great Ordinator Illien the Great, upon reaching the Fools' Peninsula Dear journal, There's so much to tell about these past two days! I feel very excited, so...
12:49 pm - 20.06.2021No good
Dear journal, I woke up. I can't sleep. I'm suddenly terrified. I don't know why. I had this great day, all these beautiful feelings, now they all scare me, I didn't do it the right way, I knew it, they will all judge this, I never wanted to be hated o...
02:38 pm - 15.06.2021Cheeky
"Silence is our doom" - motto of the city of Marion Dear journal, It's late in the night, but the pitch black and mist aren't so bad any more. I'm alone on deck, no one noticed when I slipped out of my room. The girls were tired from their trainings...
02:28 pm - 12.06.2021Trials
"Clashing swords, a demon's laughter" - Neles Enir, in [i]Poems of Sildenas[/i] Dear journal, We're once again on the move. There's little wind, still, but the ship at least travels. Still a thick fog, maybe thicker than ever, and while there are no...
12:00 pm - 12.06.2021Visited a Gavan city
And even found a flag from the Ael Velle. Bart was really nice to come to such a foul place with me. Hope he doesn't think I'm too much of a nutcase.
858 After the CouncilBittersweet
"God lives even in the Desolation of Iziper" - Great Ordinator Ilien the Great. Dear diary, I have returned from a very interesting walk. I write this on the deck of the ship, by the light of a single candle, while all around me these strange mists ...
04:12 pm - 06.06.2021Last straw?
"Something" - someone Dear journal, I'm in no mood for quotes today. It's a sunny but windy morning, and Xebec the captain rushed us all to board the ship. We leave Gessen for a third time, and heading for the Western Desolation for the second. Hope...
02:54 pm - 06.06.2021Magic-men
"Magic shouldn't be taken too seriously" - Great Ordinator Laranys Bardiz. Dear Journal, We finally arrived on Vazakis island. It was a pleasant journey from Gessen. We now prepare to go to the tin mines and maybe find that wizard's lair I read abou...
01:00 am - 06.06.2021Well it's been a while
"The World's an odd number, and I'm the one left out" - Tais Moldareon Dear diary, We are travelling to Vazakis island. It's a rocky place outside of Dushen. Not particularly interesting or nice, save for one small detail: a tin mine turned wizard's...
12:26 am - 04.06.2021The sea is vast
"I don't believe in demons. I have been enough" - Jebymma Dear diary, It felt appropriate to start quoting the big baddie himself, since we're getting closer to the Western Desolation. I sure hope we won't bump into liches. Well, this one is long de...
12:26 am - 01.06.2021The Lady and the Sheets
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11:11 pm - 31.05.2021The Lady and the Sheets
"Ten Kere-Len Nen Tapnim" - inscription of Marte. Dear journal, We have reached the Monument of Life one day ago. Seeing Buin for the first time, I thought of that ancient saying inscribed on the gates of the city of Marte. Then Malvis. Now Ur-Mava...
11:10 pm - 31.05.2021Toy
"Kings are just babies. But we are all their toys" - Gys thhe Fool So we are far away in Arofa and it's dark. I heard Tova is nice but I'm not sure how nice it feels right n w . I hate Talion. And father. And all men and women of all kinds ...
10:41 pm - 31.05.2021Mannerisms
"The gilded doors of negation ever so slowly open" - Aedyra Vantior, To the Great Shore. Dear journal, I have been thinking about Aedyra and her book a lot these days. She hated to write about love, it seems. She never really felt it, but she understo...
10:26 pm - 31.05.2021I love peaches
"If nothing else, love the ground you'll turn into" - King Gendys I of Worania So, I discovered I love peaches. I ate a few good ones last summer, when I was reading through my Tall Tales collection. Nice stories, but not without substance, sometime...
08:49 pm - 29.05.2021Unilateral thinking
"By the Almighty, I have looked into people's eyes for all my life, and all I saw were mine own" - Doric Adilas in his Confessions. ...
08:27 pm - 27.05.2021The list of amazing people following the adventures of Eve.
Social
Birthplace
Marion, Ionolia
Current Residence
On an adventure
Contacts & Relations
Her (new) friends: Heron, Nixie, Pullius (Talion), Verfys.
The cheeky one: Bart
Wealth & Financial state
A couple of books.
Family Ties
Member of the Parion family of Marion.
Religious Views
Almightyist. Knows a thing or two about religion.
Social Aptitude
1, thanks to Bart.
Mannerisms
She's very polite until she brands you an idiot.
Then she's NOT.
Hobbies & Pets
No pets, but she'd like a bird or something like that.
She likes to read, make the occasional drink or potion if she can. She would like to write an epic, probably in verse.
Speech
Very articulate.
Maybe too articulate for some.