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6 August 858 AC

A little thought for my captain

by Eve Parion

"The hare and the tortoise raced. The hare reached no ground, for in no time it could have so done. The tortoise strived all the way; and it won" - 3rd tale of Theme
 
Dear journal,
 
It's nighttime now. Bart is sleeping like a baby. I found something and I wanted to write down this note immediately.
 
I'm sure Nixie won't read what I'll write here in like ever, but I'm sure to find a day and a moment to tell her some of it in person.
 
So, point is, dear journal, I got a letter from our captain. It was a very... touching one. I mean, I always thought Nixie was a little bit apprehensive at my brash go-Nutcase style, so I figured she wouldn't open up to me very much. Maybe she fears I'll go all judgy on her, I tend to get inflamed and start spewing words on people whenever I feel the need to get a point across, but I usually do it because I care so much about the subject (both the subject of the discussion and the person I'm getting the point across).
 
Im writing as much as Pullius speaks, enough!
 
So, basically Nixie answered my letter, the letter I sent her back then with the Marc and captain election thing. It was a heartfelt letter, possibly my most heartfelt letter, I don't remember ever putting so many words for one singular point. I really really wanted to give Nixie this point of view, knowing she would understand what I meant there and hoping for a rapport. And she never mentioned anything about it since, but I guessed she didn't know where to start. We are alike in some ways, hehe.
 
So she got me this letter, explaining to me that she has both motivation and hope. She was clearly upset during the last together training, I remember talking a lot and maybe sounding a little bit pedantic. Maybe she thought I didn't pay attention to what she said, which is not true, of course, but I do tend to go over the top with one idea or two - I'm obsessive Nutcase Eve, after all.
 
She then shared the fact that she's writing a book on our adventures. Imagine my astonishment. I mean I knew she was writing some sort of log, I thought, but an entire book, that's gotta be a very large and complex project. But if I hear "large complex project" I hear "Nixie", so I'm sure the book is as good as her one-liners.
 
But most importantly she gave me a crumpled piece of paper which today represents the invaluable gem which I hid in my jewelry box (I have no other jewels, shh). I never saw anything so sincerely written down before. I could read through her most pure and primal emotions, fear, hope, hate, faith, desperation, apprehensiveness, all kinds. I can't really tell more, not even to you, it's a secret I will keep. But that piece of paper was the greatest gift I've ever received; it meant she trusts me, and more than that, she wants me to understand her; which means she thinks I can understand her. And the fact that a person thinks you can UNDERSTAND her, like really understand her... Is one of the most precious things on this good earth. I can't say I trust a lot of people to understand me. In fact, almost nobody. So.... yes, I was very touched.
 
As for her feelings... Dear Nixie, I know you can't read this. No worries, you don't have to. I'll show it. What you need are not arguments for hope, and certainly not for me to repeat why we're doing this etc. Haha. No. You know, you want to do this, to fight evil and save this world, you know where your hope is to lie. But you are also careful. You understand. Maybe you understand too much, eh.
 
I remembered the 3rd tale of Theme the wise monk from Pel, of the hare and tortoise. I'm the hare. I go here and there and maybe I get lost. My hope is everywhere, so sometimes I find myself hopeless in the middle of it all. You, my dear Nixie, are the tortoise. You go slow, very slow. No one would give you a chance, at first. But, little by little, you arrive to a much stronger, safer feeling. I know that. What you need is for us to believe in you, and not cater for you as if you don't have the power, or the understanding, or the ability to hope.
 
Honestly I wish I were like you, a lot of times. But I also love me and my Nutcase-ways, and I think together we make the perfect team.
 
As a friend, as a true friend, I will be by your side, just like this. Hope I can make at least a tiny difference.
 
P.S.: Our captain always caters for us. Look at how she cares for Drenizek. I want her to know she's cared for too. Hehe. Shhh

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