A stormy sea

Dear diary,
There is a lot to news to tell you about these days. Some of them are good and the others are....just news. We are going to a long adventure on another sea than before. I know I am made of fire, but I am starting to like this sea. To be honest, i wouldn't mind to spend my life on this ship with all the people that are here now...yes dear diary, even with Dillen. ( He is still sneaky snake, but even some snakes can be sometimes friendly).
 
Anyways before I tell you about that, I still need to tell you about the day spent in the "Butterfly Land". I was feeling surprisingly good, maybe it was because we were staying here or maybe all that happened gave me a strength, I don't really know, but i was pretty happy. We got together to decide what we were going to do. After all we can't really stay here forever. And to be honest, i wouldn't want to. I wanted to eat FISHES soon and I couldn't do that there. The "Butterfly land" is beautiful but it's for butterflies.
 
We stayed there and talked a lot with each other. It wasn't the easiest talks, because everyone had their ideas and Nixie was very not motivated. Hmmm I thought that this place is going to make her happy, but it seems that it has brought something else on her mind. Anyways, if it was something, I was sure she would talk with us so we continued the discussion. We talked about elves and humans and how to convince them to fight under the same goal. The plan was to not defend anymore but start attacking. Now that we had a lot of new information, it was time to do some bum-bum to protect this world, and fight for life and free will. I am happy Eve understood what I was saying. I am sure that if we met earlier, she would have been a better fighter than i am. She is really brave. So, in the end we decided that the liches, necromancers and no life- no death people are hated by everyone So that might be a cause they would join to fight together. I mean I don't know about the others, but I really wanted to do this bum-bum. But from here to anywhere, it is a long way and we had to decide which way we had to take. Seems like everyone was done with the Western Desolation, so we went the other way around to Enneth. I mean i did not want to go that way because I thought that going back the same way, might be better for us because we would know where to go. But now, i can at least spend some more time on the ship. Well, if we don't get killed by dragons. At some point, Heron said something mean about the Continent. I don't really remember what but I saw Nixie very sad. I think she thinks that the Continent is already lost because Xantinya is here, and she probably worries for her family. But i do not think the same. I am sure that Ghebaro is taking good care of our home and even though i was born there, I somehow feel more at home here, with the others.
 
We finished with the talk and then went to spend some time with the others. When the night came, Drenizek suggested we should gather on the ship, and make a big fire. He does know how to make the perfect end for this great day. So all of us, except Bart and Eve, stayed near the fire and talked. I wanted to say a story about snakes but even Nixie had the "Verfi not again" face so I gave up. But it was the perfect opportunity for sneaky snake Dillen to tell us about a sea monster he once saw. It seems pretty scary but I am glad people on his boat were alive. I don't know why but i didn't want to make bad jokes about him tonight. I guess I was really in a good mood. Then Drenizek and Nixie asked Marv if he was born from an egg. I sometimes wonder if Nixie drinks too. The conversation was very amusing in the beginning but I could feel Marv was just done with it so he went to sleep. I Guess it was time for all of us to do the same.
 
Well since we were going to leave the next day, I wanted to sleep in the pretty flower field. I was just looking at the stars trying to fall asleep when I saw Xebec coming. I was surprised to see him there but well I did not mind a bit of company. We talked for a bit and then he said he had something to tell me. He started to tell me about a tradition from his lands. When you appreciate a person a lot, you give them a pretty horn filled with good things. I was enjoying the story but the way he talked was even better. I think he was a bit nervous but I didn't really figure why. Then, after a few moments of talking, he said that he doesn't have a horn but he gave me a pretty shell instead. How red does the fire get? I regretted I was amused by Xebec being nervous a moment ago, it was my turn now. Well of course, I did take the shell and put it in the safe place. It was my little treasure now. I know what this meant. He really appreciated the thing I did for his birthday.
Then, I kissed him shortly. It really was a good day today. We then talked a bit about his premonition. Xebec said that maybe the death wasn't really a real death but more like a change. The premonition of his parents, was indeed a bit different that it was supposed to. While he was talking, he gently touched my hair. It's really had to focus on such a serious conversation when he does things like that. He doesn't seem very changed to me but it was something in the way he talked. He seemed...happier. I really hoped I helped a bit. And he may be right about the premonition or not, but we will not find out anytime soon. The conversation got a bit more relaxed and I had some time to calm down. We talked about Nixie and how she was a bit afraid of him. He seemed very amused about it. I mean I am a bit amused too. Nixie, the Great Captain, scared to talk with Xebec. It made me smile a bit. Oh and then, I gave him a little clue about where we were going, but he didn't seem to get it. I wanted to sleep at some point so I took the blanket he gave me and asked him if he wanted to share. I thought he would have liked that. And I was right, but not after he made a joke with me. Dear diary, I did change my mind, maybe he changed a bit more. Anyways, i slept very well that night.
 
The next day we started our journey to Enneth. It was a sunny day with enough winds for us. Since I knew that Eve was going to be alone after the Black Sylph is gone, I wanted to ask her if I can move back in. I mean, I wouldn't like to sleep alone either. She agreed, but I could see it wasn't really what she wanted. Bart then came and suggested the same thing, her reaction was totally different. Luckily for her, I do notice these things very fast. She was a bit confused at first, but I jumped in and told Bart, that Eve would be very happy if you stayed with her. I was happy they were getting along so well and to be honest, I have fun with anybody that stays with me so I didn't mind staying with Pullius. Also now that i am sleeping in the same room with Pullius, I can guard him all night. No knives behind my back.
 
We talked a bit about the Almighty, and then went to move my things from Marv's room. We got interrupted by Heron. He had a small problem with the "sexy sense" again. Nixie ( now I am sure she drinks too), asked him about what everyone was thinking. This was going to be very interesting. Heron, started to talk very openly about what everyone was thinking. When he got to Eve and Bart, Heron talked a lot. Neither the couple, or the others seemed to be very happy about it. So I decided to think about something so weird it would distract everyone's attention. I mean having a fun night with Nixie and Xebec would be weird enough,right? It seemed to work, but Nixie got way too excited about this. I mean what is going on inside her drunk head? She even got a bit upset when I told her that it wasn't true. Amusingly enough, i think sneaky snake Dillen, heard something. He was probably jealous he wasn't the one we were talking about. Well i had weird conversations before, but sometimes I should expect the unexpected on the boat. I do not want to remember what everyone said, so I will not write them down here. Also I don't understand why is everyone so upset at Heron, he is trying to get rid of this thing. And it is really not that bad, I mean everyone has at least one small thing they would like to do. Even Nixie, who seems to be hiding it very well.
 
We had a few days of peace and silence in which we continued our trainings. I wanted to start trying to hit faster than before but I had no success training with the fastodans. Then, Dillen came to me and asked if I wanted to train with him. See, diar diary, he is not as bad. He knew I don't like him but still offered to help. Of course I said yes. I get to train while I fight Dillen. Sounds very fun. But I guess he will only be "Dillen the snake" from now on. We also talked with Laimon for a little bit. He now seems motivated to prepare herself to fight. It seems that he had found his purpose.I am really glad to hear that. He is training with Dillen the snake at the moment. He said he wants to return home, but i wonder what he will do next.
 
Well of course, there are always storms on a normal sea, I totally forgot that in the Western Desolation. This one was a very big storm with a lot of tall waves. At some point, it felt like we were almost flying. Xebec and Nixie were in front trying to make sure we survived. I was very very amused. Earlier that they, they talked with each other. Finally. Xebec was still ordering Nixie around about how she, as a captain, should not be afraid her crew is made. I think you can imagine how the whole thing looked like. And now, in the middle of the storm, Xebec was smiling while flying on giant waves, while Nixie was staying there, praying for her life while holding Xebec's foot. But she stayed there in front. She is really learning a lot. I wanted to stay and enjoy the view but I had to go back to work as fast as possible. There are many weird people on this ship, and I am one of them.
 
When we finally done with the storm, we gathered together. I was happy everyone was safe. Nixie was barely standing, but she was fine. I think? Then, I went to talk with Xebec, but I just wanted to make sure he is alright. He seemed doing perfectly fine, so I talked with him for a bit, hugged him and then I went to finish my business. Water barrels don't get carried by themselves. You see, we were moving the barrels with water, and she got Pullius, put his head into the water and asked him: "So tell me Pullius, is the rain water sweet?". He replyed with yes, and then did the same thing to Nixie. To my surprise, she also said yes. What is wrong with everyone? I mean maybe from Pullius it's not that bad, but Nixie? NIXIE? Whatever happened on the "Butterfly land" really affected her. If she keeps like this, we will have a talk. To explain you better, dear diary, the water in the barrels was ocean water, so salty.
 
Later we gathered again, for a "torture training" session. This time, Bart suggested that we should talk about what we felt about this journey to the "Butterflies Land". Nobody wanted to start,again, and they were also talking about other things. One day, we will be fighting and plotting, killing and other things, and they will regret not being able to talk about it with us. Anyways, Heron was the one who Bart chose to start. But Heron didn't have much to say. He still said that he needs to discover more in the future to understand. Then, it was my turn. I talked a bit about a fire I felt inside, which for me represented this feeling of wanting to fight this, to not give up. I don't really know how to explain it, you would have to feel it to understand. I think some of us did get it (Did I ever tell you my favorite couple, is also very smart?). But Nixie, found it hard to find this fire. She has a small fire in her, but she needs to make it bigger, she needs to find her will to fight all of these problems. However there were some we could have helped her with, or at least try. She even said she is a bad leader? Why would she say that? She lead us to this way, and takes care of each one of us. Even after all that happened, she said she is feeling more anxious than happy. I mean it must be stressful to be in her shoes. She is responsible for many things especially with Laimon, Dillen and Drenizek. Maybe she should for a second stop and see the happines behind this pain. After all, the Black Sylph smiled in the end, didn't she? Then Bart said, that he felt like he had learned a lot in this journey, and that he feels he had grown a lot. He is right, we all grew a lot since the beginning. The road was hard but it was all worth in the end.
 
Then, there were a few peaceful days again. Eve, came to ask us to help her organize the party for Bart. I could swear Bart's birthday was the next day, but as Nixie said "I can barely read". Guess I read the days wrong. I felt bad for it so I decided that his party would be the best, of course I expected Eve to have a plan. The rest of the day, while Eve was keeping Bart busy, we organised everything. Eve suggested that each of us should draw something on Bart's surprise cake. I tried to draw a heart of mean with Bart's musical instrument inside. I hope he liked it. Then at night, we sang him a few songs we knew Bart would like, and then we played a lot of games. First it was a swimming contest and some "smart man games" with black and white that I did not understand. But then the fun part came. Then the fun part came. We first played a game of who is jumping in the best way in the water. I don't remember who won, but everyone was very amused by it. I took a bit of a break from these games because I had to ask Vas to take care of Drenizek ( I will tell you about this later, i really want the party memory to be a happy one). But when I came back, I saw Bart and Eve dance so nice, that I dared everybody to compete with them. Of course, Drenizek couldn't stand back so he agreed. I couldn't resist either so I was planning to participate as well. Of course we both needed a partner, so Nixie joined Drenizek, and Xebec came to me. They really thought they could beat us. When I saw Brunek and Vadrek join, I said more as a joke that Heron and Pullius should join as a team too. And as jury, of course Dillen (well pretty sure he would have liked to dance with Nixie tho), Vas and Laimon. Pretty fun,right? Well as expected, goznians do not dance well. I do not know what happened with Eve and Bart but they seemed to be a bit slow. I was a bit upset Xebec and me don't really have serious opponents. We do make a good team. But I did talk too soon. Heron and Pullius were absolutely amazing. I swear they had practiced this before. Now that think of it...I didn't see Pullius and Herron much that day. Well, I know when to admit my defeat so I told them they were good but I was still happy for the good teamwork I mad with Xebec. Then, we played another fun game, which I call "break bones". Nixie suggested we should play it so why not. It was very fun, although I lost again. One fastodan I can beat, but two is maybe too much for me. Everyone said they had fun. But now it was time for the cake. Nixie almost set our boat on fire trying to make some fire cute bum bum on the sky but we solved it fast and tried again. They were very pretty the second time. Bart even said it was the best birthday party he ever had. I am glad he had fun. He really deserved a great party. After all, his is our great friend.
 
Now dear diary, remember when I had some...news? Well, i think it is time to tell you. Before we left the "Butterflies Land", Nixie came to me and told me about how she is worried that something might have happened with Drenizek. He was coughing a bit but a few days later, she talked with Vas. He said that Drenizek seems fine and that we shouldn't worry. Nixie had many more discussions with Drenizek but he was always saying that he is fine. I even tried to ask him but he wouldn't say anything. Soon, the things got even worse. He started coughing blood and soon, he even lost his voice. I think everybody noticed that. But that night at the party, we finally understood how bad he is. We found him laying on the floor, barely moving. We very fast called Vas for help, but there isn't much he can do. Dear diary, I am afraid that Drenizek might have gotten a very hard disease, because of that Xenatine. He is slowly fading away. The ship seems a bit quiet without his songs. I do not think this should happen, not to Drenizek. I didn't talk much with him, but he did make us all feel good when we weren't. Let alone that he saved us all. He is not even able to dance for a long time anymore. I think he has weeks to live. We are hoping that we will soon arrive to Enneth, that the elves might help us. But until there, I want to do something for Drenizek. He said that he likes the sound of people, so until we get to the elves, at least let him hear lots of voices every night. I think that's what the others are trying to do as well I think. After all, I do not know what will happen next, but I know I can do something now. I am also worried about Nixie. She considers Drenizek a very good friend. If something happens with him, she will be absolutely destroyed. She will try to go on, but she will need a lot of strength for this. I feel very sad because of this, because well, while he was lying on the floor, Drenizek was almost ordering us to go back there to have fun and he wants this ship to be well. You can see it in his eyes that he doesn't want to die yet. I don't know how to help but there must be a way. We have to save him. We promised we will, so at least we need to try. Please Drenizek, keep going, just a little bit more. Good people like him don't deserve to die and it's because it's him that it is even harder. He is our party boy indeed. But that is why we fight, to protect good people and to try to save them. No matter what happens, this will be a test for us, and we need to be ready to expect the unexpected. As a wise man said "heart is more important that anything else you got".
 
We will hurry to Enneth as much as possible.
May the Almighty have Drenizek in his care, and love us all.
 
P.S. Drenizek seems to have lost his gods and faith? What is happening with him?