Days on the sea

Dear Diary,
Days in the Western Desolation are very long. I haven't seen anything but fog in the last few days. I can feel that everyone is starting to feel affected, the whole feel is very heavy.
Since I last wrote, there were a lot that happened. The first day started as any other. We woke up and went to have breakfast together. After those bad nightmares, it's really nice to talk everyone in the morning. I saw that the crew keeps calling Pullius the "demon boy" so I went to try to make him feel better. We ended up talking about why he calls himself Pullius. I think I understand a part of it now, it seems I was wrong to think he was just being proud. Then, Nixie joined and we talked about rain. We asked Pullius to try, together with Nixie, to purify the water. I don't really understand their magic men talk about higher arcane, but I heard Pullius say that the rain water is salty. Hmmm...I could swear it was sweet. Next time, I'll make him taste it.
 
After that, we kept having some small talks, and met later in the day for our daily "let's torture people" training. I am starting to feel that they are only doing this because Bart and me insist on it. They seem to try to hide from it as much as possible. Especially Nixie. This time we didn't even finish the training. It all started as usual, and the feeling was good. Bart and Eve finally got together. I kinda assumed something since I noticed some kind of marks on Bart's neck but didn't want to be the one to start this talk. It must have been a challenge for the two to tell us, especially for Eve. . I am very happy for them, and I appreciate a lot they told us. The others were happy for them as well, everyone but our very salty magic man, Pullius. I mean maybe it was because of the water he drinks, maybe that one is salty too. I'm sorry dear diary, I shouldn't talk ugly words about my friends, but he really made me angry, he was very mean but I guess it was because he was upset.
 
So, after Bart told us the good news, Pullius, understandably upset, went to take a breath of air. I know he loved Eve and there is no way that he would feel good in those moments so I wanted to be there with him. I searched for him on the deck and tried to talk with him. But he kept insisting that I should not talk with him and leave. I mean I understand but he really said it in a mean manner. It seemed to me, that I was annoying him. It's true I kept insisting to stay there with him, but it was because I care for him as a friend. I get very annoyed when people tell me rude things so it's true that I wanted to cut him with my beautiful Flavia. But this time I couldn't do it, I was as sad as I was annoyed. If Pullius keeps to push everyone away, he will remain all....alone and I know, better than anyone, how that feels. As his friend, I want to make sure that doesn't happen but it's really hard sometimes.
 
Nixie came and we decided to go back inside and leave Pullius to have some time alone. We tried to continue the training. I talked about how Pullius makes me feel angry sometimes and how I was hoping Bart and Eve to get together. Then, Eve joined the conversation and we continued to talk about how Pullius could be a potential threat to us. Then it was Nixie's turn. She successfully avoided the subject, telling us that she doesn't understand what she feels, so there is no point to tell us. But...I am her best friend...maybe I can't understand it better but I can try. Why doesn't anybody want to tell me how they feel? Am I such a bad friend? Dear diary, I shouldn't think of this, I guess the Western Desolation is really affecting me.
 
After the training, we heard that Laimon and Xebec were together, so it was the time to see what they were doing. Idon't know what I was searching for but I was curious, so I dragged Nixie with me. We went there, not sure why, but we did. Then, Xebec talked with us about Laimon and we promised to keep the secret. And if Dillen was to do anything shady, to stop him.
Later in the day, I continued the training with Xebec. He doesn't really like to talk about himself. He called me "nosy" because I asked him something more personal. I may be a bit nosy, maybe him like the others, don't want to talk with me. I know he seems to be strong and he may not show it, but he must be as affected by the Western Desolation, as we all are. He just needs to be a strong captain, after all his crew depend on him. Dear diary, I think I ...like him so I want to help but don't tell anyone that.Shhh! I think he got a bit upset at me, because I cut a bit of his beard during the training. I was really sorry, I didn't mean to, I swear.
 
Later that day, I saw Vadrek and his brother training so I decided to join them. Recently, Vadrek has started to talk a lot more with me. He is very fun to be around, especially when we train together. He seems to respect me so I decided to try help him become more of a muscle man. He was a good company since I was a bit upset of the events that day. And he helps me as well. We make a great team I think.
 
That night, Bart came to sleep with us. I stayed awake because I wanted to give something to Xebec as an apology present. He told me he likes the horizon line, so I painted it for him. I saw Nixie going out and coming back after a some time. The next day, she told me about how she talked with Laimon and that she gathered some water. My girl is sneaky and smart, that's why I love her. I helped her carry some barrels, but we kinda did a lot of noise so we decided to stop when Xebec shouted at us to be quiet.
 
The next day, we had a short meeting with Dillen and Xebec, and discussed about food portions and wind and other things like this. Then Vadrek knocked on the door. It was the perfect timing because Nixie wanted to prepare some baths for the clue. Xebec promised Vadrek to give him some alcohool if he helped. I should thank Xebec for helping Nixie and me and Vadrek Then, I gave Xebec the painting. I don't know how much he liked if but he wanted to be appreciative. I hope he will feel better soon. Anyways, the trainings didn't go much better that day either. This time, I couldn't do anything properly. Ufff I really wanted Xebec tell me more about himself.
 
This day didn't go well either. After the meeting, we heard that the Sylph was hurting again. I tried to touch her and say a prayer but I felt like I received no answer. NOT EVEN GOD WANTED TO TALK WITH ME. I didn't understand why he didn't answer but I suddenly felt very sad. How can you believe in something that is not answering you? I wanted to believe but I had many questions and started to think a lot about them. I thought a lot about about it, but the more I did, the more i doubted it because I couldn't get a sign.
 
I decided to talk with someone about it. And I felt I needed to talk with Bart about it, because he is always kind enough to listen to all our problems, and tries to solve them. So I asked him a bit about the Almighty. Eve was close by so she joined the conversation. I was very happy she did that because, she always has interesting facts to add as well. Then, i don't know how but everyone came there, even Vadrek. And they all started talking about religion. I was curious why they believed in whatever they believed. I was also very curious about what Vadrek said about the other smaller gods that were near The Almighty. I mean it is interesting to see how people all believe in the same thing but they show it in different ways. And I think I understood a bit better. To make it simple, you have to believe you believe and open your heart to these beliefs. Vadrek and Eve didn't really agree with each other on this subject so they decided to settle this as a man: With a fight of will. I was amazed by Eve, she is really strong when she wants. Vadrek also surprised me, him admitting defeat was an honorable gesture. I think he would get along very well with our party. Maybe he will want to join us after this adventure. I thought of a reward for him. I made him climb on the stick that carries the wind, while carrying some weights.
 
Anyways, everyone went to sleep, so will sleep soon too.
 
May the Almighty love us