One battle of all

Dear Diary,
 
A single lifetime would not be enough to tell the whole story behind this battle. Although fighting the same fights, each one of us will remember it in a different way. Each will have their own memories, feelings and scars. But dear diary, I’ll try my best to put the pieces together for I believe it would not be fair to only say my side of the story this time.
 
This battle was bigger than anyone could have imagined, and more fierce than anything we’ve been through so far. I do believe that no matter how much we would have prepared ourselves, none of us was really ready for what was coming. In the back of my mind, laid the thought I’ll never see some of our party again, but I couldn’t let it out. There was a strong enemy in front of me already, I did not need another one in my mind. Before everything we had one last hug together. In the last year, every hour of every day we’ve been there for each other. We faced death together one too many times and still dared to try and face it again. We may or might never all see each other again but our bond will always be there. And neither this fight, nor anything could ever take away the love we have for each other. That’s what I told myself to be able to move on, to survive this fight.
When we got to the battlefield, on the east, we saw the army of the Continent, led by Perdoto and Rudolf, slowly marching towards the enemy. From the west, The army of undeads was marching tirelessly, and it was maybe from the clouds above, but they seemed even more horrifying than before. And, slowly but surely, our redochian army in the south began to cross the river. From a hill a bit further away, Kelly, the great general of the army, was already busy sending orders to all the sides. And behind her, in an improvised medical tent, Vas, Eve, Bart and of course, Lullaby, were getting ready for what was to be, maybe the most difficult and dangerous birth in history. The rest of us, split up. Damaschini, Tallion and Miyun marched to the east, to defend the Continent army. Nixie and Xixi stayed by the river to fight the enemies there. The crew and I headed frontline along with the OrkMaaians. But we quickly separated from them, when from behind the undeads, we saw the thousands of orcs led by Jun Gara. From there on, I lost sight of what was happening with the rest. I even got lost from Dillen and Iz, who at first joined me.
 
Not long after the two armies clashed, the orc general and his army began to make their way through our army. Redochians were strong, but the first lines of the enemies were stronger. From the first sight, you could notice how merciless and cruel these orcs were. Even smiling and cheering while decimating the poor people. And their white armored second general, whose name I only found out later, was the worst of them. From what I heard; the others did not have an easy time either. In the east, Damaschini, Miyun and Tallion met the first lich of the battle (none other than Mal), riding his precious dragon. With no hesitation, the two of them got on the dragon, confronting the lich straight on. They have managed to corner Mal to the point where he had to retreat, leaving his dragon behind. But the struggle only had began for them. Beneath the dragon, the Continent army, helped by the redochians, were the regiment Blades of Darkness horse riders and from somewhere behind, a king in shining armor was looking forward to meeting an old “friend”. As soon as Damaschini and Miyun reached the ground, Haldric welcomed them, leaving the two no time for breathing. It must have been hard for Miyun to find herself stuck between her best friend and her father. But she managed to convince the two not to have a fight. Damaschini even apologized for what had happened in the past and by doing so, convinced Haldric to let them go this one time. As for the Blades of Darkness, Damaschini’s blackfire powers and combined with Tallion magic have managed to transform Damaschini’s PowerFlake into an explosive that halved their number. I could begin to explain to you the whole magical process which they have told me earlier today, but firstly, I would never finish writing everything, and then I would probably mistake some parts.
 
Near the river, Nixie has once more met her evil relatives. This time however, it was not Soreoth that faced her, but Xantinya’s son himself. From what Nixie told me, Soreoth seemed like the nicer guy, which said a lot. We still have no clue of Xantinya’s son real name, so to make the story easier to tell, Nixie has named him Alunelu. Faced with probably the deadliest creature of this world, Nixie had no choice but to stand her ground. And so she did. But no matter her efforts, she barely even touched him. Xantinya’s son, with his filthy air of superiority, went straight for the redochian troops, just so he can prove Nixie how useless she was. But our Captain knew better. She and Xixi, who just joined the fight, kept trying to stop him by clashing swords with him. As a response, Alunelu used the plane manipulation to tie them to him, grabbing Xixi by the neck. Nixie tried everything she could to free herself and save Xixi. I could feel it in her voice when she told me the story, she was mad at herself for not doing more, for not saving Xixi. Maybe for the first time since we met, I perfectly understood how she felt. It wasn’t her fault, she knows that, but the image of seeing your friend dead at your feet never goes away. And that immortal elf, just left, killing thousand in the way, leaving Nixie watch over Xixi’s headless body. And after all of that, the immortal elf even had the audacity to raise the people as undeads as well. Nixie however did not give up, using the “knowledge” power to stop the undeads, including Xixi. The irony of it all, you’ll only understand later. I think they should change the saying: “You either die as a hero or live long enough to see your friends raised as undeads”, for there is nothing more painful than that.
 
I wonder what the others think during fights. I usually just rush in, head on, until I realize that if I die in the first five minutes, it won’t do any good to anyone. This time, my wake up call was the first hammer in the head from Jun Gara which almost took me down for good. Only then, you forget about anything else and you just focus on the enemy before you. It’s sometimes like your muscles remember how to move on their own, almost as if you rehased this fight a thousand times before. And once you’ve done so, you always want to hit a bit more, you resist a bit more just so you win that fight. You begin to push yourself to limits you didn’t know you have until then. Somehow you head closer to death with each extra risk you take, and you know that. But still you don’t stop because you know that what you fight for is more important. And even if you die, it will mean something if you helped in any way. I was close but I did not win the fight with Jun Gara. Drenizek tried to help, but even him almost died there, twice. And poor Vef even gave his life. I never got the chance to introduce him. To be fair I don’t know much about him either, but he sure was very brave. He came to me before the fight, and swore that no matter what, he will fight alongside me and protect me. Unfortunately, that promise never ends well for anyone. When Jun Gara tried to slash through Drenizek and a few redochians, Vef tried to block him. But Jun Gara cut his head as if he wasn’t even there. I barely managed to save Drenizek by using my fire sword to block Jun Gara and absorb the energy from the impact using some plane manipulation that I made up in the spur of the moment hoping to help. And thank the Almighty it did! I kept trying to push Jun Gara in front of our troops so they hinder him, and it worked for a while. While Drenizek went behind our ally lines to rest a bit, I tried to keep Jun Gara busy. It worked fine, but I could feel it in my bones that I was close to my limits. I had to retreat but not before landing one last powerful hit on Jun Gara, who seemed almost as tired as me. I have later found out that after I left, Iz shoot Jun Gara, instantly killing him. I guess the fight I just had was not for naught.
 
From what the others told me,the eastern front where Damaschini, Tallion and Miyun was by far the worst. Not only some of the Blades of Darkness were alive, but now, Haldric climbed on the undead dragon, and began burning all the Continent army. Tallion and Damaschini split their power, one going for the dragon, the other staying down, helping our armies. Damaschini and the soliders were surrounded from all sides by enemies. If it wasn’t for the Chest Princess, who managed to bring the automatons into the fight just in time, probably there wouldn’t have been anything left of our friends. With the automatons holding the lines, Damaschini and the rest began their retreat. They were now also attacked by fastodan undeads, as if what they had so far was not enough. How sad it was that Damaschini had to fight Endi’e, a good friend along the years. What did I tell you? You either die as a hero or live long enough to see your friends raised as undeads. Damaschini was already hurt from the battles before and I imagine fighting the boss of the fastodans was not an easy one. He fought bravely until he could no more, and luckily Miyun and Tallion’s new followers were there to finish his job, and take him out alive. In the meantime, Tallion teleported on the dragon. There he met with Haldric, who the very next second hurried to push our magic man down. Fortunately, Haldirc was so hurried that he almost stumbled, and in a turn of events, Tallion somehow managed to make him fall from the dragon first. The dragon also fell dead not long after Haldric thanks to Tallion who used his best spells on him. Distracted to kill the dragon, Tallion did not notice a lich who began attacking him. Tallion soon realized that he won’t be able to fight it alone so he used the teleportation rune to get away.
 
When I woke up from the coma, I saw the OrkMaaians in front of me. They were smiling at the orcs, who were smiling back. These people really enjoy fighting too much. I wanted to join them for round two of fights, but I had decided I’d only be in the way, so together with Drenizek, Isbel and Marc, we decided to go search for Dillen who got lost trying to find a necromancer to defeat. But before we could find any necromancer or Dillen, a Lich-Lady found us. And it was not just any lich-lady. She could use her powers to turn us one against the other. Which, of course she did. In a moment, my mind went blank, and the next thing I remember was me biting on Drenizek’s leg. He wanted to protect Isbel and Marc so, despite barely holding on, he stayed behind and fought me. I could have killed Drenizek there…it was way too close. I hate this game the evil is playing of turning you against everything that you love. If I would have killed Drenizek there, I would have blamed myself. That’s how they want to destroy us. Brother against brother, friend against friend. And I am getting so tired of it. When I came to my senses, I immediately apologized but Drenizek already knew I wouldn’t hurt him intentionally. That cheap tricks of Xantinya and her allies won’t work on our party anymore, not after all we’ve been through. In that moment however, I got so scared that I’ll lose Drenizek and Marc and Isbel, that I decided to hide. I should have fought, I should have faced that Lich-Lady to the death, if necessary, just like I swore in my code. But I knew that if I did that, the others would come to help me, and will die for it. So, for the first time in a while, I ran away.
 
Nixie, who slowly came to her senses after Xixi’s death, was now climbing on the shoulders of a redochian, trying to find some kind of magic man that was causing a lot of heat, tiring our armies. According to her story, she met this Kasparian, whom at first, she thought was one of the generals. But then Nixie beat him very fast and realized that it was probably a soldier who lost his way. I do wonder what Hamsa was doing in the meantime.
 
You’d expect that if you’d stay away from the battlefield, you wouldn’t get involved in a fight,especially when one of your friends is there, giving birth to her child. Not for us, not this time. On the hill, Lullaby was giving birth to Rafil, assisted by Vas, who was very hardly focusing on ignoring the battle that was going on behind him. While giving birth to Rafil,Lullaby was also blocking Alunelu’s planes manipulations, exhausting herself. Eve, Bart, and Bajid’s father who just he came to help his family were trying their best to keep Alunelu away from Lullaby by hitting the immortal elf’s mask. After a lot of effort, they managed to destroy the mask, leaving Alunelu in his natural state of goo. But Alunelu takes after his mother when it comes to stubbornness, so he returned in a corpse of a dead soldier. Bart however managed to turn him back into the goo even trying to catch him in a vase. Of course, it was not enough to keep Alunelu away, but it was enough to make him go into his armour and fuck off somewhere far away from Lullaby. When she told me the story, Eve was extremely happy to talk about Rafil’s birth. Right after they all finished fighting for their lives, Rafil’s loud cry covered the whole room. I imagine it was a wonderful moment, especially given the circumstances. So long everyone waited and cheered for this moment, and it happened right exactly when we needed hope the most. But it didn’t last long, because Kelly walked in, bringing news about what was happening outside. With no time to spare, Luallby asked Eve for help to stand up and get ready for the fight. Meanwhile, asked by Kelly, Bart headed to help us into the battle.
 
From here on, our stories slowly start to collide into one. Right when we were hiding, Tallion teleported to us using the rune I had with me. First, I assumed that somehow he knew that we were in danger and came to help. However, his very straight face and the fact that he seemed rather hurt made me think that he actually tried to survive. Poor Tallion to run from something right in the mouth of a lich lady. To be fair, it raised my mood a bit, which was exactly what I needed. I looked at Drenizek and Isbel and Marc and once and for all I realized something. “If I really wanted to protect these people, I needed to fight whatever stays in our way, be it lich lady or something else. What did Nixie say? Nothing is unbeatable?” I thought for a second. I grabbed the others and went to face the Lich-Lady as we should have done from the beginning. But the irony never fails to surprise, and seconds later a huge lightning fell from the sky, revealing none other than Xantinya in her full form. “Whatever stays in our way” I thought earlier, well so be it. Tallion, Drenizek, Marc,Isbel and me versus Xantinya. At least our odds were a bit higher than 0. To be fair that’s why we came here, to stop her. So I was not going to hide anymore. Maybe we couldn’t beat her, but the more Xantinya was staying here, the less she could hurt people somewhere else.
 
Seeing the big lightning, everyone began to make their way to us. “Do you regret giving me the powers that I have now?” Xantinya mocked me after I tried to attack her. “All I regret is the existence of your family on this world” I thought. Jokes aside dear diary, no, I did not regret it. We saved Rafil and Lullaby and sent the message. Why would I regret all of it in the first place? Xantinya began telling me something else, but while she was doing that, I tried to dash and reach the lich lady who was watching from behind. However, in return Xantinya sent her lightning powers to me. In an instant I felt a terrible pain in every single part of my body and fell to my knees. It was like I was like I was going through hell over and over again. I could feel that after the strike, those lightnings were keeping me alive, and I hated every moment of it. I felt like an undead that is aware he’s undead. My mind just wanted everything to be gone,it wanted for me to just leave and never come back. But I didn’t want to give up. If that was what I had to endure, fine. If Xantiniya was happy to just make me die to hurt the others, fine. It wouldn’t work anyways. But, while I was still there, I had to stand up and fight. Luckily, Tallion knows one or two healing spells, and used them in combination with his magic screen to help me. I couldn’t explain you exactly what he did, but all this pain was now replaced but this warm feeling of love coming from Tallion. I could sense how much he cared for me as his family, or even more than that (?). I felt like I could breath again. Then I came back to my senses and helped by Tallion, I stood up. Right then, Nixie and Bart bulged into the middle of the fight. It seems that Nixie, coming from the west found Bart on the way and they were the first ones to join us. Thank the Almighty for making all of us mad enough to go towards a deadly place, not run away from it.
 
The redochians were even madder than us. They put their shield in front, to mirror the black light coming from Xantinya’s full demon form as a protest. Even in her demonic form so bright you couldn’t watch her, even when one look in her eyes could kill you, the redochinans still faced her. And soon, their queen also appeared, sword glowing, from behind a pile of dust that was created from her fight with Alunelu. Dillen made his appearance from somewhere between the soldiers, beaten up by a necromancer. Damaschini and Miyun, probably stuck in the fight on the east, came there the last. Apparently they used some plane manipulations to shoot a bullet and teleport wherever it would be. Impressive really. Now, with almost all the pieces arranged on the chess table, it was time for the countdown.
 
Xantinya used one of her old usual moves, putting on a whole show to try and convince us that Kelly, was in fact a traitor who was going to kill Rafil, and destroy our army. If I didn’t know Kelly better, I would have almost been convinced by her. She even went as far as “anticipating” that Kelly will ask our army to retreat, just exactly before it really happened. But in the given circumstances, that proved nothing. Xantinya fooled us once but we’re not stupid to fall for it twice. My trust for Kelly didn’t move an inch because I knew that she is an honest person and she is part of our family and us, compared to Xantinya can rely on our family. Lullaby was a bit worried, given the fact that she barely got to hold her son for a few minutes, but Nixie calmed her down fast.
 
In the meantime, Tallion was trying his best to fight with the lich-lady, who became even angrier than before. I could feel that I am reaching my own limits, so I had to do something to keep pushing myself just a little bit more. Before the fight, Vas, who was obviously worried as always for my life, gave me a special tonic. He said: “Be cautious with it! It’s very powerful”. And as I am the most cautious person around, of course the second I remembered about it, I drank it. I could feel the adrenaline rush through my veins, making every muscle in my body twitch. My jaw tightened, to the point where I couldn’t even talk, I clenched my fists even harder on the swords and forgot about any pain that I felt before. I was ready to go full charge on that lich-lady. Nixie, seeing the situation, intervened to help Tallion. Our captain struck the lich with “white fire” so hard that our enemy lady had no choice but to finally reveal her true form. That made her stronger, but not for a long time. Bart also came to help. He stopped the time, and gently gave me the cape he had. Thanks to that, I could use the last bit of magic that I had left in me to give myself even more energy. I had one chance to strike that lady and I was not going to waste it. When time began to work again lich lady tried to attack Tallion but Bart with an incredible will power dashed in front of Tallion, and stopped lich-lady’s spell with his rapier. Then, Tallion used his power to stop the lich lady from moving while I was around. All that was left was for me to go and land the last strikes and I did make sure not to miss them. Finally the lich lady fell down.
 
But just after I hit her, from behind I got attacked from some black knights in full armour and red eyes. Where did these guys come from? They weren’t here a second ago. It took me a bit to realize that I was not going to be able to beat them with normal power and I slowly began to feel the effects of tonic slowing down. I didn’t get to end this fight because I suddenly felt a blast of magic hitting me, and everything went black. Later, Tallion explained that he was trying to get rid of the same illusion of the red eyed knights, and when he did that he sent a blast of arcane around. To be fair, I think it was better for me to sleep because I don’t think I would have figured out that those knights were only in my head.
 
Xantinya was busy using her plane manipulation to attack everything around us. The ground was breaking, making soldiers fall in between the boulders. The sky was shining frequently changing from black to white and the other way around. Lullaby was trying her best to stop Xantinya’s attacks by creating this plane manipulation dome. In other words, everything around us was chaos. Alunelu who was not wasting any more second than needed on this fight launched an attack on Nixie. I was asleep but the others managed to tell me the rest of the story. Nixie tried once more to use her “white fire” knowledge which she recently received, focused all her feeling and elf inheritance, and shot it at Alunelu. The very next second, Alunelu disappeared. I can imagine that everyone was extremely surprised. Did Nixie really beat an immortal elf? Just like that?
 
But Alunelu spoiled the fun when he appeared once again. He moved his hand a bit, and Nixie felt that “whit fire” being taken away from her. The white flames that surrounded Nixie in this oval shape, took another form. And above Nixie, everyone could see The Satan’s Eye. The one that Eve saw in the Black Hole. All this time, Bart was right. Those dreams, the powers Nixie had were not to help us, instead they were made to destroy. The first time we let ourselves be fooled by demons was a mistake, the second time however, was foolish. All of us knew that, including Nixie. She received a huge shock and fell on the ground while Aluelu took this opportunity to grab her by her neck. Lullaby came into her rescue, fighting both Alunelu and Xantinya at the same time. She tried to console Nixie by reminding her that we needed our captain and then gave her a tight hug, which Bart immediately joined. But I got the feeling that Nixie did not really need that. If she really was the cry baby she seems to be, I would have left her to rot in prison. The reason why I helped her is because her audacity wakes up in the best moments. Be it Lucifer or whatever, if Nixie would let herself be defeated in that moment, I would honestly be disappointed in her, probably she would be disappointed in herself too.
 
Nixie tried to explain me what she did after, but to be fair I was not really able to get it. All I remember is that this time, she finally accepted her Elf Princess and when she did that, she received true help in return, receiving a small little diamond on her Sylph ring. Long live the Princess, I guess? Meanwhile, Lullaby and Xantinya were in a straight on fight. It was that kind of fight that we could not interfere because you couldn’t even get close to them. After one full force attack Lullaby, absolutely exhausted fell to her knees. But then, the miracle happened. I can only imagine how it felt for the rest to see and Bajid’s face instead of his wife’s and Lullaby stand up rushing to attack Xantinya again. Then everyone began to feel someone near them. Every person that once held us dear came to help us again, to keep fighting near us. Even dead, they never stopped to support us, and if anything, they gave us yet another chance to save this world. Miyun saw her real father, Damaschini saw Lyaria, Tallion and Eve met with their fathers who had fallen in this war. There are no words that can describe what we felt during those moments, the whole pack of emotions that overwhelms you. Your mind begins to flow down a river of memories and it seems to take an eternity to see them all, but in fact it’s just a second. You want to smile and cry at the same time, and melancholy, happiness, pain, hope and every feeling you ever had strike you straight to your chest reminding you of one single feeling: love. I just barely woke up from the coma when I felt this and for a second I really thought I died. I then saw the battlefield again and felt Lafk’u and the rest of fastodans behind me and I knew they were waiting for me to lead them into this fight. They really didn’t joke when they said “eternal war” and it was my greatest honor to join them. On the side, Vadrek and Brunek almost looked like they were making jokes about how they’re going to smash some undeads. And then, there was someone there whom I haven’t seen in a long time: my family. Dad and brothers were looking at me with weird proud smirks on their face. Mom on the other hand had this worried but very decided look on her face. I truly missed all of them, and I’ll always miss them dearly every day of my life. I was there, feet trembling trying to stand up. My strength was gone and I knew the only reason I am able to move was thanks to the power of everyone that was there for me. It reminded me of a shanty some of us used to sing on the Sapphire Sword.
 
“As the songs of the dead fill the space of my ears
Their laughter like children, their beckoning cheers
I’ll stay on the shore but still gaze at the sea
I remember the fallen and they think of me
For our souls in the ocean together will be”
 
And at last, when I tried to stand up, I felt as if Xebec’s hand gently grabbed mine helping me, almost nagging me for getting into trouble again when he’s not there.
 
But I had a fight that I had to continue so I didn’t waste any second before beginning to run to help our troops. The soldiers, motivated by this miracle, were pushing the undeads back. Everyone was fighting harder than ever before. Miyun told us this story of how, using the tricks from her father to fool Alunelu, and remove his immortal goo from that despicable body, by cutting its head and throwing it away somewhere. It distracted him for a while. Tallion,shaken by the whole feeling, lost himself for a second. But, from what he said, Liariya threw a banana in his head and only then he, with the whole council of Ionolians behind, flew up to the sky. You could see hundreds if not thousands of arcane bolts erasing undeads from close by. Damaschini with the power from the Erlangons that were following him, created a literally small army of minions, who began marching towards the undead lines. This was the moment we were waiting for, the attack of the white chess pieces. Xantinya herself seemed a little scared and confused, especially when from the sky, a bunch of white fire lightnings hit her. Seems that Nixie received yet another lesson from her scary teacher, Miremis.
 
Haldric, who joined to fight for Xantinya, was almost struck down by Isbel and Marc. I noticed their fight and wanted to join but another strong lich was faster. Whit a very fast strike he hit Isbel, who taken by surprise, fell breathless to the ground. I was meters away when it happened…METERS but I didn’t manage to notice fast enough to do anything. If I would have been a bit more careful, maybe I could have saved Isbel. I almost sank ,in my head rang loud and clear Eve’s words who reminded me how afraid I was that I was too weak to help the others. I couldn’t let that beat me now, not when we have to finish for this damn fight. I took deep breath and I kept telling myself that I need to keep moving, just a little bit more. I felt a horrible pain when I heard Marc crying and screaming in pain while running to hit the lich. But this lich was different, he managed almost effortlessly to block that attack, and Marc was now a sure target. I managed to drag Marc out there, hiding behind the Golem, which Damaschini probably sent there, but Xantinya managed to destroy. I hugged Marc tightly, for both calming him down and stopping him from jumping on the lich. I knew how much he wanted to kill that lich, but I couldn’t let him die as well. So instead, I handed him my sword, and with a very motivated voice I promised him that we will beat that lich together. How? That was the part we needed to figured it out. Marc was destroyed, barely holding on, and the lich was watching us as we were some kind of prey. I lived one too many times in this battle, and in that moment when I was staying near Marc, i felt closest to death than ever before. With my life barely hanging by a thread, I grabbed my sword and braced to throw my life in the game once more, trying to block any hit that the lich would have done. But then, a huge shadow flew over us, and Damaschini becoming all white for a second or two, threw a whole burst of white fire right into the lich’s face. Angered beyond limit, the lich changed his focus immediately. I rushed to him, while Haldric, now empowered by Xantinya was also approaching us. The lich was careless, and Damaschini used thismoment to strike him with the elvish sword.
 
However everything stopped and in a mere moment, from the ground thousands of shadow began killing any living being on this planet: foe or friend. It was Xantinya, who finally began to feel cornered Haldric, to everyone surprise he asked Xantinya to stop. Bart, Damaschini, Nixie and everyone else tried to use this opportunity to talk with Haldric, to convince him to give up this fight. But, he kept believing In Xantinya, and asking her to stop the shadows and spare the woranians. But then, that fucking goo head came from a side and shouted to her mother: “Don’t stop it”. For the first time, it seemed that Xantinya was conflicted, even faltering. After a few moments of hesitation, Xantiniya finally stopped the dark shadows. Probably unhappy, the undying elf vanished. I almost blinked and missed the moment when Alunelu reappeared and pierced Haldirc’s chest with a strike. That moment, Xantinya went mad, lost control of everything. She hit her son so strong that he almost died, and then disappeared into the sky, just like she appeared. And she left behind thousands of thunders that killed everything they touched.
I couldn’t believe my eyes. I believed it was another scheme to beat us, but Xantiniya’s reaction seemed so…human. In her way, she…she loved Haldric. Haldric, the guy I was so mad at for invading our home, managed to make Xantiniya love him. He did the impossible. Lullaby later apologized for letting Xantinya go, but I believe that all of us would have done the same. For a moment, a tiny moment, I could understand Xantiniya’s feeling. She lost a son, a loved one. I don’t know which part made her be like humans more: The choice she had to make between Haldric and Alunelu, the feeling of pain from feeling the total betrayal of Alunelu, the realization of any lack of feeling from her own son, or the pain that she lost another son.
 
And how cruel is what Alunelu did! His coldness and ignorance are almost painful. But he wouldn’t have faced his mother like this, if not someone had his back. You know, Xantinya may be here, but I am starting to believe that our enemy is far more underground, watching everything very carefully from his hell throne. He is the one who truly doesn’t care, the one that would destroy our world without a second thought. The same one, who gave Nixie white power and didn’t hesitate to kill his people with it, just to keep the illusion alive. The same evil creature who haunts Eve every night since the Black Hole, and the same one that would do anything to keep a crown on his head. Him and the demons will finally come after us.
 
I don’t say this often but there was one thing that I agreed with Xantinya: today it did rain with blood.
Today’s battle gathered all the blood of the people who fought, fight and will continue to fight for this world. The blood of our allies, brought together by the love for this world. The blood of our enemies be it either lichs, people, orcs or undeads who didn’t choose to fight this. The blood of all our friends whose souls joined to help us. Everything drop of blood spilt so far for this war was gathered in the ground of this battle field and in its memories.
 
Now, at the end of it all, we have to do the hardest part: say goodbye. I will miss them both. How can I not? There is no one now to make us laugh or make a whole dance show with Tallion, and no one who can be as elegant when serving meat to some hounds as us. We will bury Xixi in the water. I want to give her all the fish I can find, but she won’t eat it. Instead, I’ll do what she did the first time we met: put my wet thumb on her head, and maybe call her “Ba’tu’ta-n cap”. As for Isbel, I wish I had a crown for her but instead I’ll to cook the meal she always used to cook for me, and I’ll make sure to add onions, and no mushroom. Just like she used to do. Thanking everyone that tied today would take me years but I think that there is no need. They already know. All of them.
 
I feel that it’s coming, dear diary. The final moment of this war. I feel we are very close to it. And if, after this battle I barely could move my eyes, I feel like if I don’t get stronger, I will soon well…. I will not stop fighting, I will endure whatever I need to. As long as this world is safe, I will be happy no matter what It is all I wish for.
 
Thank the Almighty for everything He’s given us.
 
P.S.1: I knew they were watching! All this time everyone that died was watching us! Wait and see! We’ll pull this truth. Trust us!
P.S.2: I am very worried for Marc.
P.S.3: All this time, I really thought my Mom hated me, but today….today she was there with the others. used to remember her with the back turned at my and a dark expression on her face. She was watching me and I could recognize a bit of my expression when I look into the mirror. I guess I take the stubbornness from her. But I was wrong. All this years, I was wrong. She does love me. I’m so sorry Mom, for all these years I was angry at you for disappearing. I’m so so sorry. But I know now, and I will not let myself forget that ever again.
P.S. 4: Seems like now we know who was the favorite parent all along.
P.S.5: I apologize if i did mistakes in my writings, but dear diary, even if i would have been awake for all the fight, i do not think that i would remember everything while focusing actually fighting.