Dear Brother,
The events of the past days have not become any easier to handle with time. Everything is still terrible, and the news that the telecaster brings only speaks of the grim truth. So what do we do, when we cannot listen to the pleasantries of the past? There are no stories to read, no songs to hum along to. No daydreams about what tomorrow may bring. I do not know if we will even have a tomorrow. There is no escape from nightmares, Little Bug, and the longer I stay in my own mind, the more I fear I may not escape it next time.
I am sorry. I am very sleepy, but we are traveling through the night, and I must help guide and navigate. Payatier was happy to see our companions again; she is eating right now. A broken stump of a long fallen tree had many beetles hiding inside for her. So, we wait, and will continue towards this ‘Ash Site’ when her energy returns.
I need a distraction.
So does Gidget apparently, but I seem to value my fingers - and your fingers - higher than she does. The knowledge she gained was valuable, but the experiment was stupid and careless. Not only did she harm herself, but if her magics had not suited the environment well, what would have happened? Would we have been seen? Would we be running for our lives instead of resting to feed my friend?
But I can not be hard on her. It spurred more discussion, and more experiments. Ildris has woken up - he is also finding great interest in the blast can limits. Ambrosia is very dangerous for those that aren’t able to treat it the way it needs, and someone else saw this too. There is something added into the mana that is sold, so that it does not harm the regular Beau. After a test by Echo and more studying by Ildris, I think - we think - that… mana may be more alive than any of us suspected?
I wish I could see what the Keeper sees, Brother. I could make much better theories if I could look at this web of mana myself. For now… I must accept what I am given. Maybe this is the puzzle I need?
Payatier has turned the stump to mulch. I hope our journey continues to be safe, and that when Kaida chases you away, perhaps I will have more answers.
Always Yours,
Xhoya