I'm Sorry Who Are You? X2
Jaxion grew in ways I hadn't imagined. He's starting to realize that he needs to meet people half way. He apologized to the Xhoya and Lux. He's going to up everyone's kick ass. I'm pretty happy!
Of course, the down time lasted five minutes. For some reason this place is acting like our new command center. We're seeing ash sites, the wreckage created by the Gazelle. We were just talking about investigating the vessel he destroyed after we learned that the long dead but somehow alive BRN general was being manipulated by the Deremetru. (Apparently Jaxion is dropping bombs of all sorts!)
Then all of a sudden a threat is projected for Lux. At first it is just words, but somehow it becomes a holo-projection that can interact with us. It takes on the shape of Lux's body and tries to strangle her. It calls her a fraud. (Somehow they are tapping into the very systems that can heal his robot and using them against Lux! They who? Fuck if I know? It doesn't seem like the Deremetru would be after a pop star at a time like this. Unless they know she's trying to use her influence to change the world? That seems unlikely (at least for now).
Plot twist, who ever we've been traveling with isn't even Lux! Apparently, there was an incident of jealousy between Lux and Adrian, a competitor that wanted to be exactly like Lux Silvers. (Are identity crises worse for changelings?) A fire started on the competition show and Adrian was burned, then locked away for criminal insanity. Only Echo realized that a burned changeling can't change. Then she slipped when we were trying to relieve her guilt. I was trying to say that she isn't guilty she's sympathetic. Those shows put way too much pressure on young people, is it any wonder some of them crack? I was trying to say you never should have been put through that. (I think it is unethical. Making young people feel like they have to sing and dance or they aren't likable at an age when you aren't sure if there is anything to like about yourself. By the gods I swear show business has pure evil in it!) Ki' pointed out that it should be sympathy not guilt. "I've been Lux for seven years," she accidentally blurted and then she ran away. This is turning into a fucking TV drama.
Echo looked to see if the real Lux escaped from the asylum (or prison?) Is she a Psion? Is that how she is able to give her doppelganger nightmares? I was determined to figure out how she or they (who knows if Lux is working alone?) was able to interact with the hanger. Someone snuck something else onto Serge. This time it's on his bike. Tracking devices, a self destruct mechanism that was designed to blow him up balls first (heartless sons of bitches!). More devastating than this potential threat were the secret files. Including a Ghost Protocol. (Now we're in a spy/ action flick).
Jaxion is a fucking super soldier. He's 180 years old, has died and been rebuilt multiple times. His body has been replaced piece by piece, only 30% originally parts remaining. Ironic that his classic bike has more original parts. Gods my sense of humor is getting dark. I guess it's how I deal. (How the fuck did Zero have access to all this shit?)
I'm scared for Jaxion. That he has programing in his mind he doesn't know about. I'm worried there might be a piece of Echo he doesn't know about. (though he says his creator decided to give him free will I wonder if anyone else had a say?) I'm glad that we all want to comfort each other. Though, that feels kinda small right now. I'll do my best to make this bike as good as new with Echo. I'll be here if anyone wants to talk. I think Lux/ Adrian needs some space. My mind is reeling as I think about all the emotional fall out to come. A soldier with nothing to fight for, no one to come home to. If I pity him, he'll probably want to slap me more than anything and can I blame him?
Lux is a woman who so desperately wanted to be loved she was willing to be someone else. She's probably better off being comforted by a young woman who I'm barely on good terms with, yet care for more than she knows. She is so smart it baffles me and terribly kind. I wish Jaxion could hear the truth she so wisely speaks to deaf ears. I probably sound harsh and foolish trying to explain why we dumb adults cling to what we know, even when it is maladaptive as hell. Just like Lux clung to this false self. Will they both unravel? Do any of us have a strong enough bond to help them as they piece things back together?
Is that why a god appeared? Is that why we found out Zero is far more than we imagined? Kii always seems to imply that they are there for you in times of need. It has never happened before. Though maybe, just maybe, someone guided Pops to find me that day in the car wreck. A old crusty fart taking pity on a newly orphaned baby. He sure as shit didn't have to. I know that was a blessing, I'm just not sure why I was worth one.
Sometimes my brain feels like a seven layer cake of ,"what the fuck just happened?" It is glued together with, "I guess I will just have to do my best while trying not to freak out, doubting my own abilities and sanity frosting." In short every second feels like I am flying by the seat of my pants. I don't say or do things right half the time. (In fact I'm constantly trying not to win the foot in mouth asshole of the day award while pleading with people to get along, while failing to do so with half the people I hope to get along with.) Quite frankly I think I would rather be trying to piece the exploded far too aptly named Star Fall than dealing with the absolute cluster fuck that is about to befall us.
In the middle of all this a god asked me a question. My dumb brain wondered what a god can do and wanted to see a real fire dragon or something awesome. (I am a child at heart!) That seemed useless, selfish and blasphemous, even as more fantastic wonderings flit through my brain. Why am I so selfish? Why was the first thing in my mind that I wanted to see something amazing? Maybe because I want to forget the crazy for a moment and just have my mind blown? Like a knock your socks off rock concert that doesn't even let you think (lets just say I totally get Jaxion's taste in music).
Wow, I am the queen of digressions. A god asked me a Mother FUCKING QUESTION! My dumb brain rambled, glitched, and then when it was fucking silent, my heart could speak. My companions are hurt. I can't untangle the identity crisis that Lux is going through. I will, in time, try to give some awkward words. Something that I hope says she is beautiful as is and should decide who and what she wants to be a fuck anyone who doesn't see that she is amazing. Not for the pop or anything else. Because she is fierce, yet kind. She stood by Xhoya better than anyone and didn't let her fear get the better of her. Jaxoin might believe that she needs training (and we all do) but she could teach him a thing or two about how a true friend acts. She's loyal to her core. I hope to be the kind of friend worthy of that one day.
AHHHH! Get to the point Gidget! Sarge is hurt and a god asked me a question. So I answered with my heart. I whispered, "Can y0u talk to the dead? Someone I know is hurting and he needs to talk with his family." I half regret those words. The knowledge of what happened is burying him like a ton of bricks fallen from the semi that just ran his ass over and backed up for good measure. The "truth" that now submerges him in a truth that is as solid yet fragmented as my clumsy metaphor implies. I'm afraid he may drown. Will my request just add one more weight? Will my good intentions prove disastrous? FUCK!
Gidget's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Pre Session 0
15 May 2025 11:28:20
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Session 0
15 May 2025 11:41:27
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The Shit, the Fan and Death?
15 May 2025 11:55:33
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Warning Shots Shouldn't Hit
16 May 2025 12:23:19
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The City is Burning
31 May 2025 02:26:11
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New Friends and Fanatics?
31 May 2025 06:24:13
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Diplomacy, Destruction, and Death
14 Jun 2025 03:14:33
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Resurrection and Wrap Up
29 Jun 2025 10:31:44
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The Journal Entry’s title
30 Jun 2025 02:23:37
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Cat- astrophic Hellscape
20 Jul 2025 12:07:25
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Two Days, Two Nights, Holy Shit!
02 Aug 2025 01:35:03
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Hope in the Midst of Mass Destruction
23 Aug 2025 10:14:00
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The Journal Entry’s title
31 Aug 2025 07:01:33
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Trials and Travel
07 Sep 2025 08:02:03
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The School of Pain
13 Sep 2025 06:49:44
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The Heart of the Matter
11 Oct 2025 10:16:09
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Metal and a Mystery Solved
25 Oct 2025 06:36:42
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Rifts Internal (duct tape can't fix everything)
08 Nov 2025 06:35:02
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The Journal Entry’s title
12 Nov 2025 08:41:39
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2 am
22 Nov 2025 07:45:34
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Internal and External Conflicts
29 Nov 2025 06:17:37
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I'm Sorry Who Are You? X2
13 Dec 2025 09:22:07
15 May 2025 11:28:20
15 May 2025 11:41:27
15 May 2025 11:55:33
16 May 2025 12:23:19
31 May 2025 02:26:11
31 May 2025 06:24:13
14 Jun 2025 03:14:33
29 Jun 2025 10:31:44
30 Jun 2025 02:23:37
20 Jul 2025 12:07:25
02 Aug 2025 01:35:03
23 Aug 2025 10:14:00
31 Aug 2025 07:01:33
07 Sep 2025 08:02:03
13 Sep 2025 06:49:44
11 Oct 2025 10:16:09
25 Oct 2025 06:36:42
08 Nov 2025 06:35:02
12 Nov 2025 08:41:39
22 Nov 2025 07:45:34
29 Nov 2025 06:17:37
13 Dec 2025 09:22:07
The major events and journals in Gidget's history, from the beginning to today.
I'm Sorry Who Are You? X2
Jaxion grew in ways I hadn't imagined. He's starting to realize that he needs to meet people half way. He apologized to the Xhoya and Lux. He's going to up everyone's kick ass. I'm pretty happy! Of course, the down time lasted five minutes. For some re...
01:56 am - 17.12.2025Session 20 - Chapter 7: The Killing Kind
01:23 am - 14.12.2025Session 20 - Chapter 7: The Killing Kind
06:58 pm - 13.12.2025Internal and External Conflicts
So the battle was won. I hate that I had to play getaway driver instead of shooting assholes in the face, but so be it. Now we're staring at what they were after. A mammoth dragon like mech. Apparently Eldris' people created this thing. Weird that the kee...
11:51 pm - 29.11.2025Session 19 - Chapter 6: Kindling pt. IV
10:38 pm - 29.11.2025Session 19 - Chapter 6: Kindling pt. IV
06:24 pm - 29.11.20252 am
I'm so dumb! Where to begin? I'm scared. I'm scared and I just wish things made sense. I guess I kinda get why Sarg keeps trying to shove everyone into his military box, he's afraid too. Not that I think he could ever admit that to himself. I'm not much b...
11:48 pm - 22.11.2025Session 18 - Chapter 6: Kindling pt. III
04:58 pm - 15.11.2025Session 18 - Chapter 6: Kindling pt. III
02:06 am - 15.11.2025Rifts Internal (duct tape can't fix everything)
Woke up this morning after dreaming about a beautiful tall motherly woman. (but she didn't have pointed ears. Surely she isn't mine.) Lets just add it the list of weird shit that randomly happens to me. I feel well rested, so I guess that is a bonus. The ...
04:09 pm - 10.11.2025Session 17 - Chapter 6: Kindling pt. II
10:52 pm - 08.11.2025Session 17 - Chapter 6: Kindling pt. II
06:27 pm - 08.11.2025Metal and a Mystery Solved
We hit the jackpot! We've got some sweet supplies for upgrades! I'm going to build a mega battery for the Cindy. (Who knows how long magic will be able to power her?) I'll use Umbrosine on MAT's lets so he can sneak. The treds will be too hard to silence....
04:18 pm - 26.10.2025Session 16 - Chapter 6: Kindling
10:38 pm - 25.10.2025Session 16 - Chapter 6: Kindling
07:02 pm - 25.10.2025The Heart of the Matter
It was a normal day. Which means, weird shit happened. Some of it was fun and awesome and some of it was worrisome. We met Jewels this morning. (Not sure why we didn't invite him to stay with us. I guess in the wake of getting shot and all that we lost si...
12:54 am - 12.10.2025Session 15 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. VII
11:31 pm - 11.10.2025Session 15 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. VII
06:24 pm - 11.10.2025The School of Pain
So we were exploring this "deserted" magic school so we can get some more info about exactly how this magic in a can situation works. You know writing that makes me realize just how insane and artificial the idea is. Especially after seeing some people ju...
02:39 am - 27.09.2025Session 13 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. V
12:00 am - 14.09.2025Session 13 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. V
06:38 pm - 13.09.2025SAFE &
We've released some "Do It Yourself" episodes. Water reclamation/ purification , how to cook and heat a space without magic. For the advanced viewers we've got one on communications/ building a HAM radio etc. with Cowboy Creative C.C. for short (Echo ) an...
04:21 am - 08.09.2025Session 12 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. IV
03:04 am - 08.09.2025Session 12 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. IV
09:18 pm - 07.09.2025Session 11 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. III
10:44 pm - 31.08.2025The Journal Entry’s title
How did I become the idealist of the group. I guess I'm having trouble wrapping my head around the world that will be. I have to find some way to help as we move. If it's transporting supplies, helping to rebuild communications, while Lux sings... I've go...
10:44 pm - 31.08.2025Session 11 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. III
07:10 pm - 31.08.2025Hope in the Midst of Mass Destruction
I can't wrap my head around the losses, truly. Right now I'm numb, as we debate our next steps. It is clear to me that the Derimetru are diving everyone. They've attacked all but 11 countries, mostly capitals and cities with a heavy military presence. The...
09:45 pm - 27.08.2025Hope in the Midst of Mass Destruction
I can't wrap my head around the losses, truly. Right now I'm numb, as we debate our next steps. It is clear to me that the Derimetru are diving everyone. They've attacked all but 11 countries, mostly capitals and cities with a heavy military presence. The...
01:21 am - 24.08.2025Session 10 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. II
12:09 am - 24.08.2025Session 10 - Chapter 5: Blackout pt. II
12:08 am - 24.08.2025Session 9 - Chapter 5: Blackout
03:45 pm - 17.08.2025Session 9 - Chapter 5: Blackout
03:45 pm - 17.08.2025Sessions 6-8 - Chapter 4: Finis (D&D Weekend)
04:52 pm - 10.08.2025Sessions 6-8 - Chapter 4: Finis (D&D Weekend)
04:52 pm - 10.08.2025Two Days, Two Nights, Holy Shit!
Talk about "Dancing With the Stars". The kid went missing and was some how dancing in the sky with Ip. I'm not sure if my last screw has come loose, cause the wheels came off tonight! The kid and Princess seem to know this tiny God, who replaced Xoya's ...
01:11 am - 04.08.2025The Journal Entry’s title
So the cat is out of the bag, (no offense to Silas) or rather the Kelien. Sarge is oddly okay with it and no one else seems to give a shit. Lux has created a fake persona for her so she can pass as not frightening, just really rich. Which is half right. P...
12:40 am - 20.07.2025Session 5 - Chapter 4: Finis
10:29 pm - 19.07.2025Session 5 - Chapter 4: Finis
06:36 pm - 19.07.2025Chapter 4: Finis
01:11 am - 06.07.2025Chapter 4: Finis
06:21 pm - 05.07.2025Resurrection and Wrap Up
I'm back baby! Aaaaand I owe sarge big time. We took down the asshole mech dog who turned me into BBQ. Scored a sweet gun for his ride (motorcycle) and MAT, from a walking blast cannon. We rescued some survivors, found some engines digging under the base ...
02:24 am - 30.06.2025Resurrection and Wrap Up
I'm back baby! Aaaaand I owe sarge big time. We took down the asshole mech dog who turned me into BBQ. Scored a sweet gun for his ride (motorcycle) and MAT, from a walking blast cannon. We rescued some survivors, found some engines digging under the base ...
02:23 am - 30.06.2025Session 3 - Chapter 3: On Razor's Edge pt. III
02:23 am - 30.06.2025Session 3 - Chapter 3: On Razor's Edge pt. III
02:23 am - 30.06.2025Diplomacy, Destruction, and Death
Dear Diary, Random money making ideas, the kid beating any tough guy or gal in a spice related contest. Scorpion wrangling, (apparently Kiillien is a Scorpion whisperer, Sargent cranky pants scares everything, Lux and I rocked the picnic blanket and e...
02:42 am - 18.06.2025The Journal Entry’s title
Dear Diary, Random money making ideas, the kid beating any tough guy or gal in a spice related contest. Scorpion wrangling, (apparently Kiillien is a Scorpion whisperer, Sargent cranky pants scares everything, Lux and I rocked the picnic blanket and e...
02:40 am - 18.06.2025Session 2 - Chapter 3: On Razor's Edge pt. II
02:34 pm - 14.06.2025Session 2 - Chapter 3: On Razor's Edge pt. II
02:34 pm - 14.06.2025MAT
03:02 am - 07.06.2025New Friends and Fanatics?
Dear Journal, What do an international superstar, a metal man, a cranky purple sergeant and our own unlikely group of friends have in common? Apparently, a murder robot, a cube of power, and some moles. I don't mean the furry kind either. The infiltrat...
10:43 pm - 31.05.2025The City is Burning
Dear Journal, The plot thickens. We confirmed that the Gazel, (the freaky ultra-advanced Warforged) knows where we are and had the black box from the Starfire delivered to us. This confirms that there is a mole in the Black Axel cartel. Why did it send...
10:42 pm - 31.05.2025The Shit, the Fan and Death?
Let me start by saying that I blame the cat. I don't give to shits how fluffy and innocent that suit wearing, whisker face appears! Alarms blaring, bodies everywhere, and this fuzz ball is trying to stop some creepy futuristic war forged from sabotaging t...
10:40 pm - 31.05.2025Session 0
Dear Diary, The journey started smoothly and had a few odd bumps... but I made it to my destination. Just stick to the track and it will all go smoothly, Pops is always right... Except as I'm writing this next part... there's a girl in my room. I don't...
10:39 pm - 31.05.2025Pre Session 0
Dear diary, I'm finally doing it! I'm off to make a name for myself! Pops always said if I put in enough elbow grease and sweat I'd rise through the ranks. This is my first big assignment! I've never been allowed take a shipment alone before. Individua...
10:38 pm - 31.05.2025A Fractured Paradise - Act I: A Normal Life
10:35 pm - 31.05.2025A Fractured Paradise - Act I: A Normal Life
06:05 pm - 31.05.2025Kiqueo - Preydrus
05:56 am - 31.05.2025Kiqueo - Preydrus
01:43 am - 31.05.2025The Shit, the Fan and Death?
Let me start by saying that I blame the cat. I don't give to shits how fluffy and innocent that suit wearing, whisker face appears! Alarms blaring, bodies everywhere, and this fuzz ball is trying to stop some creepy futuristic war forged from sabotaging t...
10:56 pm - 16.05.2025Warning Shots Shouldn't Hit
FUCK YOU! Stupid flying metal asshole mother fucker!!!!!! Who the hell blast holes in a freaking transport to warn it to turn around! You shoot near! You blast a warning! You use a freaking com-system! Apparently anything short of total antihalation is ge...
12:44 am - 16.05.2025The Shit, The Fan and Death?
Let me start by saying that I blame the cat. I don't give to shits how fluffy and innocent that suit wearing, whisker face appears! Alarms blaring, bodies everywhere, and this fuzz ball is trying to stop some creepy futuristic war forged from sabotaging t...
12:23 am - 16.05.2025Session 0
Dear Diary, The journey started smoothly and had a few odd bumps... but I made it to my destination. Just stick to the track and it will all go smoothly, Pops is always right... Except as I'm writing this next part... there's a girl in my room. I don't...
11:55 pm - 15.05.2025Pre Session 0
Dear diary, I'm finally doing it! I'm off to make a name for myself! Pops always said if I put in enough elbow grease and sweat I'd rise through the ranks. This is my first big assignment! I've never been allowed take a shipment alone before. Individua...
11:41 pm - 15.05.2025Kiqueo Session 0.5 pt. III
03:40 pm - 11.05.2025Kiqueo Session 0.5 pt. III
03:40 pm - 11.05.2025Kiqueo Session 0.5 pt. II
02:37 pm - 26.04.2025Kiqueo Session 0.5 pt. II
02:37 pm - 26.04.2025Kiqueo Session 0, Session 0.5 pt. I
01:02 am - 20.04.2025Kiqueo Session 0, Session 0.5 pt. I
09:01 pm - 19.04.2025POPS
05:24 am - 03.03.2024Gun Smith Guild Crest
05:17 am - 03.03.2024The list of amazing people following the adventures of Gidget.



Social
Birthplace
unknown
Current Residence
City where her guild resides ?
Contacts & Relations
Her guild
Honorary & Occupational Titles
Gunsmith, Tinker
Wealth & Financial state
MATT/ a few guns/ spending money
Family Ties
Pops/ guild
Religious Views
not highly spiritual but does beleive in the creative God
Social Aptitude
Great professional social skills and friendship skills
Mannerisms
Very boyish in movement and dress, though her personality is bubby and friendly.
Hobbies & Pets
MATT / Tinkering
Speech
Higher pitched, clear, honest