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How did I become the idealist of the group. I guess I'm having trouble wrapping my head around the world that will be. I have to find some way to help as we move. If it's transporting supplies, helping to rebuild communications, while Lux sings... I've got to try. I know there are eight of us. I know we can't fix everything, but we just saved the world. We need to try. We have to do something. Maybe we can set up trade routes as we travel? Tell people hey, they need medial supplies here but they can trade food... hope that people with cooperate instead of warring with each other? I'm scared. It feels like we're on an island, or maybe in the eye of the hurricane. Blissfully unaware for the moment of how bad it's going to get the moment we leave this city.
 
So, I'm helping a friend. Echo needs a mouth. So I'm throwing myself into what needs to be done here and now. Taking things one step at a time. I'm going to do something. I swear. I don't want to die, but I won't let fear rule me to the point of doing jack shit. That is what they want. They want us scared and looking out for only ourselves. Unless the world comes together, the people we have left, we a well and truly fucked.
 
Maybe we have to wait for communications to come back online so we can start some greater coordination efforts? But mark my words, we aren't doing bupkis! No offense to Lux, but singing isn't going to fix anything. We need to bring real hope, somehow. Maybe I am willing to risk my neck, just a little to do that, within reason.
 
In the middle of it all Ki' told us she really is a princess and she wants to lead. I counselled her to be the kind of person worthy of following. I also warned her I'm standing next to her not behind. I don't know if she really is the chosen of the Gods (though that wouldn't be the weirdest thing that has happened this week and she seems to be a keeper) As long as she is willing to try to make a positive difference I'm with her. Group effort and all that. At least continued conversation seems to indicate that we have to help the people who are left work together. We'll see.
 
We found out that the BRN was loosely working with the Derimetru when a bomb was found in the Helix Hold subway. They tried to hide that fact by disguising the lotus symbol and red metal of the bomb. So our first expose shows the discrepancies. The truth will out! At least everyone knows to look underground. I just wonder if they can really disarm this shit? It doesn't seem like they know what the fuck they are doing.
 
Was our post enough? Will people believe us? Those were my questions as we went off to bed. But it seems to be off to a good start. The world is believing us and they believe Ki'. The world isn't ending, as long as we act. Surprise surprise, the Vox Ultima are on our side.
 
While scrounging for materials and making an emergency contact glider (battery powered propeller and radio guidance system). I realized this do it yourself/ reclaim thing attitude will be the way to go for a lot of people right now. So, Echo and I are going to create how to videos for survival. We'll start with water purification and go from there! (No risk and we can make a difference) People need to know how to live in a world with very little magic. Maybe we can create long lasting differences. (i.e. less dependence on magic.) Right now, we need to focus on immediate need.
 
We woke in the morning and a special delivery came from Zero came. We have gold (1150) a full blast can, gas masks, passports, instructions and a new holo disk for Silas. Sounds like we are off to our first burn site.
 
That's all for now,
 
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