Weddings & Huldra

Entry 210521:
 
-Rowan is taking a few days off. I hardly blame him, he deserves it. I hope he has fun but it's going to be strange without him.
 
-Called Lena. She seems more confidant in my abilities than I am, but it's nice to know at least one person in the community who doesn't think I'm a complete failure/disaster. I think I'll take up her offer of tea sometime, just as a social thing.
 
-I need to have a sit down with Kirk sometime. His very obvious crush on me is awkward. If he wants to work here and learn things then I am his boss and mentor. He is going to have to look for someone to romance elsewhere.
 
-Returned to the library. A kid had gotten in here and made a huge mess of things. It was... honestly horrifying. I don't know how something could make such a mess to this extent... I... How? Also: parents that don't supervise their children and expect the library staff to be their babysitter have earned my eternal ire.
 
-Found a book with what looked like someone was copying the protection runes. I don't think this book is mine. Someone was trying to copy the spell for some reason. And it looks like they got close. I have to be more careful. Something is afoot.
 
-Spent time cleaning and working on alleviating the effects of the curse. I still have work to do on some restoration, but at least I am not worried about being hit by a bus on my way home.
 
-Curse seems to have lifted. It feels so much better. I'm so glad to not be breaking things and whatnot now.
 
-Went to festival with Rowan. It was nice to just have a little fun for a change. I think Rowan is right, and I need to learn to relax more often, but honestly, I'm not sure if I can. There are just too many things going on. It doesn't hurt to have some fun every once in a while though. Maybe I should do something like invite Brenna and Aldis over for a girls night with movies? That's a thing normal people do for fun, pretty sure.
 
-Met up with Brenna at the festival. She was with Chaz. Chaz is a bit overwhelming. I have a hard time imaging being half as comfortable around people as he seems to be. We talked for a bit before going our separate ways.
 
-Headed back to my parents home to pick a few things up. Mom wasn't home. Found some library books- took them to take back to the library. I really need to figure out what dad did to let her go in when she wants.
 
-Met up with the others at the wedding. Brenna was only allowed in if she didn't have any weaponry. She somehow had he dagger on her, and swore that she didn't know it was there. I offered for her to put her bag in my car. Kjellaug Torleifsson said that if the weapon showed up again it would be on me and accused me of trying to ruin the wedding so Rowan would have a chance with Eleena. Which is pretty insulting if I'm honest.
 
-Aldis gathered us all up together to confer. Eirunn was nervous about everyone seeing her and was ready to bolt. After we put our heads together and exchanged information, we realized that Eirunn, like Bjørg. She was worried about everyone seeing her as a monster, and things could very wrong if they did. We decided it would probably be best and safest if the ceremony was a bit more private- Eleena's family didn't seem like the most accepting after all. Eyvor Sivsdóttir approached us as we spoke and we told her that changes need to be made. She said she would agree if the brides agreed.
 
-Aldis and Gunnar went to talk to Eirunn and Bjørg while Brenna and I went to talk to Eleena. We told Eleena that Eirun was panicking it it might be easier for her if they made part of the ceremony private. We realized that she didn't know Eirunn was a huldra. We told her that it was a matter of life and death, which did seem to sway her. Though she also accused me of trying to ruin the wedding for Rowan's sake which is... really frustrating. I know emotions are high, but I'd really like people to stop insulting me and casting aspersions. I'm not the best person, I'll admit that, but I'm trying to be better. I would just... like someone to not think so poorly of me. I don't know how to fix that. I'll be paying for the things I did forever I guess.
 
-Gunnar started a two person rock concert as the rest of us gathered the brides, the völva and the boar to the space that Bjørg has prepared. It was quite lovely. The band had gathered over there, which luckily they were skalds, so there was that. It went well, all things considered. Eirunn revealing herself wasn't pleasant by any means, but it was something I had studied before, so I was at least a little prepared. It's still not comfortable to know that much about a person, especially someone I haven't really... gotten time to forge any real bonds with. I think, once their honeymoon is over, I should reach out to her. She made herself venerable in a way that I can hardly fathom. Perhaps she could use another friend?
 
-Brenna passed out as the ceremony ended. I hope she's alright. I know she has been through a lot- I hope that didn't open some old wounds.
 
I think I had a vision, it had to be a vision.
[The next several lines have been scribbled over.]
It wasn't me. I was seeing something from the past maybe? Or... it was something like the dreams I have been having. It was so vivid. Maybe I was seeing something through someone else's eyes. I... something is going on. I have to research. There has to be something somewhere in the library that has answers.. I'll look into it. I wouldn't do that. I'm not a bad person. It wasn't me.