Got home from the adventure in the woods. Brenna went with Halstein. Gunnar went with his uncle but planned to meet back at my place. Aldis and I went back to my apartment, ordered food and started up Star Wars.
Got in the shower after Rowan and Gunnar both showed up. I got a text from Skal. He wanted me to meet up for a memorial for Jeanette. I have conflicting feelings about this.
Gunnar and Rowan predictably had an argument while I was in there. While I should have seen this coming, I really don't think I should have to oversee their every interaction. I talked to the both of them- Gunnar is more interested in mending the relationship between them than Rowan is. I don't think this is anything I can fix, but I really wish I could. Hopefully things can get better between them. Gunnar also wanted to try and hook Rowan up with his friend which is kind of funny, and I'm honestly not sure how to respond to that.
I told Gunnar about Skal and Jeanette. He told me going was probably a stupid thing, which was fair.
Gunnar told me that his shadow isn't a family thing, something he had thought before. His uncle said something about a parasite- We will be doing research on the creature to find out more about it. Maybe then we can figure out a way to proceed.
I went back inside and told Rowan about Skal... it didn't go well. I knew that was going to be the case, but it was probably better than keeping it a secret. I told Skal I wasn't going. It was the right thing to do, but... It still feels bad.
Got a text from my mom, decided I probably should check on her. Yet another personal interaction that went poorly. I told her about the draugr. I don't know why. Maybe I wanted her to feel proud of me for once, about something? I should have known better. Why do I even try? She's not well and I've never been the person she wanted me to be. I don't fit her picture of a perfect daughter, never have. The person I am doesn't matter: only who she thinks I should be. I'm tired.
The door doesn't work. I can't get in. I don't know what to do. I've never read any notes about this happening to anyone else, but that doesn't mean it hasn't happened. I'd look into that more if I could get it. I can't even ask anyone about this because there is no one to ask! It's just me: the biggest failure ever to grace the face of this gods damned earth.