Journal 5 - Day 1 in Beaumont pt.3

Well. I don't have a clue how to feel or think.
Gidget had every right to be panicked. We, were attacked. Turns out whoever The Gazelle works for has truly created war and is trying to pin it on poor Mr. Kitty Man! I've never been so scared in my life. Oh, goodness! And poor, poor Gidget is so distraught. In the attack Cindy was mangled. This giant warring war forged, who called himself Rexor, came after us with force I'd never fathomed. He ripped the leg off and the roof. He treated us like we were the enemy, saying we were harboring a fugitive. He wasn't alone either.
I had two scary firsts in this battle. In Gidget's panic, I drove Cindy. I've never drove anything besides my doby, it was nerve wracking but so exhilarating. I am very thankful to these companions of mine, if not for all their quick work and thinking we would possibly be dead. I couldn't see everything they were up to, focused on getting away, but I'm thankful. The next first for me was much more difficult to process. Without a second thought, I shot a person. In the face. A tiger looking war forged named Meeska... But he was ripping into Silas. He was going to kill him. He wanted to kill him... I didn't even hesitate. I wanted with all my heart to keep Silas alive.
 
I never thought my desire to become famous in this world would start off like this. Somehow, Gidget was able to come to a peace treaty with the giant brute, Rexor. They were not able to get to Silas, thank the gods, but we were told we had to retreat on foot back the way we came. But, our mysterious little lady was able to do a little magical illusion and with the poor broken down Cindy, we got out from under that terrible blinded tiger being's sight. Yeah riddle me that one there. Even though he became an enemy. I'm glad I didn't kill him.
We walked with little talking. My mind has been a contradiction. Both racing and shockingly blank. The only good thing that came from that ordeal is that Xhoya found trust in us. At least a little. She is a fascinating young one. We are now travelling upon the coolest bug, a Blackback beetle named Payatier. She is so cute, I love her! She was the glimpse of happy I needed. I'm going to try talking with her for a little! Maybe she will help bring on the trance I need. I hope things can get better from here, I don't want the world to become a warzone while I'm trying to become my dream.