14.Cheeky

Dear diary,
 
I am in front of Eve's room. I feel like shit, like my hands, body, mind everything went numb. Truth be told I am scared I am gonna make another stupid joke out of reflex. But I am more scared of her response. Anyway this is not the time to be a coward. Sigh, let's go.
 
Dear diary,
 
It's late in the afternoon, the same day. I must tell you I am feeling very good. It's been.. a while. A good while... My body is feeling very different and sore. I mean, I have never experienced a woman's touch before, and I must say I am speechless. Anyway, I am drifting from the subject. Hihi.
 
I walked into Eve's room. She was alone, reading a book. She was visibly upset, and I figured I kinda didn't help combat that the past 2 days. And so we started to talk. We sat down on the bed, both of us, wondering what the other was going to say. I asked Eve how was she. I know she wasn't feeling good obviously, but I had to ask. I know she tried to appear strong and convince me she was doing.. ok, but I could feel things weren't that way. I told her how I felt about the last couple of days, and how I was an idiot for doing the exact opposite of what I was supposed to be doing, aka ignoring her. I felt guilty for it, after all I enjoyed my time with her a lot, and she enjoyed time with me. And to disappear like that, right after our trip in Iziper, was at least troubling. I could only imagine what she felt, but I know for a fact there weren't good feelings or thoughts. As I was looking at her she started to tell me about her problems, and thoughts, about Talion, and how she broke up with him. Yes! She did brake up with Talion. That caught me off guard. I mean, I knew she loved Talion a lot, and she was hoping for a lot from Talion. I don't know... She told me a lot of stuff about how she felt. She was very open with me, she trusted me. I felt that...
 
She then asked what was going through my mind. I told her I wanted to see her happy again, not troubled by her many thoughts. I tried to make her happy with my little inquiries. I at least wanted to be someone who wasn't bringing her pain and suffering. Because... (Okay, dear diary, I know and you know that I don't usually, actually never say this to women. But this time felt different. I wasn't just a cute little boy with a lyre for her. I was an actual person. And she, for me, was... a friend, a very good friend... More than a friend.) I really like her a lot. Yes, I told her I like her a lot. I could feel my heart bursting and beating so fast. In the moment I think my mind went blank as I said that. I just said it.
 
She starting looking at the floor, avoiding me. I could see her biting her lip a lot, and trembling. She tried to say something, anything I presume. At this point I was shaking too. I grabbed her hand and held it tight between mine. I told her everything will be okay, and... just smiled at her. I tried to calm her down. She asked me, still looking down, if I talked with Talion. I told her about my chat with Talion, and how I was trying to not make things worse between them two. I told her about the swimming lesson and our walk... It was all for her... All this time I was pushing myself past new barriers with every word that came out of my mouth. I wasn't thinking much of it in the moment.
 
She raised her eyes, her lovely green eyes, and looked at me. It appeared as time froze there, for both of us. There was nothing and no one around us, only us. I was lost at this point. I just wanted to kiss her. I... went for it. I leaned in to kiss her, and was met at the half way point by her. We were kissing. And what a kiss. It was perfect. I could feel every negative thought and fear leaving my body in that moment. There was only us.
 
After what seemed like an eternity of happiness and calm, we looked each other in the eyes, again, and we just hugged for a while, in silence. I could feel her very strongly hugging me. After a bit and a few more kisses, I noticed her panicked about what the others will think of us. I quickly calmed her down and pulled her close to me again. She was safe in my arms, and I in hers. We lied down, and slowly started to cuddle, and talk. I don't remember what we were talking about as I was getting filled with love and affection. Things easily began to escalate. I was out of any control at this point. Eve had a special vial, that she took from home. A vial that made everything around us perfect. We were there like one. I could feel every inch of her body, every breath, every muscle twitching. She held onto me like there was no tomorrow, and I did the same. It was a feeling, that I just cannot explain. Everything was perfect. I never felt such a strong feeling before. I just wanted to sit next to her, and hold her for an eternity. Heh. I've never been this happy.
 
After the fact, I noticed a few marks of love on me. Scratches on my back and a biting mark around my neck. She is very intense, and I love it. I think I might have given her a few marks of my own. Woops. I was too lost in it. I still tremble a bit of excitement when I think about her. Even now, late at night. Hm... Cheeky. Have a good night Eve. <3
 
PS: I noticed a small note with a smiley face at some point, left on our bed. I suppose we weren't the only happy ones with the outcome that afternoon. Hihi. I am overfilled with happiness.