I need a rest...

I mean that as in, physically I'm tired but also mentally I am tired. Like, this entire day in Caeracht has been terrible, we've been bounced around from trap to trap, run into so many things to fight, and we haven't been able to stop and catch our breath at all this entire time. Plus then we had to fight Katt which was worrying cuz she was supposed to be on our side. I guess I should feel lucky that she was already hurt cuz damn she really messed us up good. I hope the rest of our rescue party is gonna be okay, everybody seems all kinds of beat up. Kern and the sisters seem kinda tapped out on spells, the brainfucking (I can swear guys okay its not a big deal) looked like it really hurt Xylund and Mooshnik, Gayle went down, the lamp bearer is hurt, and now Katt is unconscious too.
 
I guess I can keep fighting as long as I have to for now, but I'm running low on energy too. And my cloak has ash on it now which makes it look pretty neat and battleworn but that's not really the most pressing issue right now.
 
You know what? When we're done here and Greyloch is safe, I'm gonna spend some time sitting down with this dragonorb to find out what it can actually do. I don't want to experiment here, while we're nearly dead, but if it's as powerful as everybody has been saying it is, I'd love to be able to use it in case another crisis shows up. Plus, it's my birthright now, I think. Lots of people want to use it for evil still, Temlakos included, so I need to be able to protect it.
 
I'm also gonna spend so much time getting mind-controlled by Lili and learning how to shake that off. I mean, Katt didn't mind control me but she did use some psychic storm thing and hurt us all, so I need to figure out some way to avoid that. Otherwise, all it'll take is another evil Temlakos-alike to point a mentally projected spear of pain and general discomfort my way and I'll be out a dragonorb and the world will be at the mercy of a mentally projected spear of pain and general discomfort wielding evil Temlakos alike who also has a planar artifact of untold power. That wouldn't be good.
 
Before that though I think I wanna go back home for a bit. I wanna go talk to Wil, make sure that I didn't mess up that friendship. I mean haha I am terrible at relationships and crush stuff. Looking back on last night, which, honestly wow it hasn't even been a full day, I have no idea what Stohana saw in me how did that even work out. But whatever it was, there was something, so there's gotta be some potential in me and all. Hopefully we can still be cool -- I kinda wanna go steal some horses and race them again like we did when we were 9, but honestly I can just afford to rent them now so that'll be good. Plus, I can drop off some gold for Mom. She could probably use it more than I could, and then she could get the kids at the temple some newer books or something, I think that's still a thing they need.
 
Oh, and I need to thank Lana for helping me out that night cuz yeah I'm a doofus.
 
After that, I think I'll see about whether I can actually sign on with the Argent Order. Always wanted to do that, and it looks like now, more than ever, they could reaaaally use some extra manpower. It'll be weird, hiding the scales all the time, Kern would probably sound like Xylund's magic sword if I told him about this, but honestly, I think I could manage. Maybe we get to be all heroic and they'll listen to me proper when I'm like "hey I'm a hero who's also magic so maybe ease up on that stuff!" ...I can hope. At least, I can do some training with them and if they're rude about the magic stuff I'll hopefully have a super powerful magic artifact keyed to my bloodline to protect myself with!
 
Part of me really wishes I had met dad for real before now, cuz I wanna know who he was, or I guess who he is, where he came from and what he's been doing. But, also, I wanna know more about Mooshnik and where he came from and I'm not really jumping at the chance to ask so I guess that can wait too. Faergar Vochan... whoever he is, it seems like he's pretty good at what he does though. I bet if he wanted to meet me he would have by now, so until then I've just got to hold on. Which, yknow that seems to be the pressing issue right now...
 
Well, back to the real world. I dunno if we can really do this, Tem's really strong and it seems like the castle itself might be enough to kill us... hahah Xylund was kinda right in his own weird wrong not right way. Things are bad and weird, and then you go to [insert deity of choice] heaven. We've gotta try to make it good and normal, or at least, neutral and acceptable though. For Ryldis and stuff. For Greyloch. For Annie and Corrin. For all of us.
 
We're gonna do this. And if we don't we're not gonna care enough to worry so let's do this.