I am terrified. Of what I've become. Of the unknown. But, most of all, that they were right. I am a freak. My entire life... My entire fucking life I fought against them and their hateful words. But, it seems now that it was all meaningless. I wonder how old that child was. Hopefully young enough to not know. I thought after fourteen years I'd be able to do something but, I'm not good enough.
Some call what I have a gift, all I know is that its a curse. It's a bane which has been holding me back for to long. I doubt this is Erathis now. Even she is not that cruel. I have no sense of where this is coming from. No idea of who saved me from deaths door, but also took their price for it. I pray that whoever they are, that they give me a chance.
I had another dream last night, so vivid, it was basically real to me. Showing a ruin within a swamp. I don't know whether this clairvoyance is part of the curse or part of something else entirely. Only time will really tell.