Miyun

Hi journal I found out I'm a demon-human now what is a demon-human you ask I don't know I call me demon-human because it seems that I am a human but I also have some kind of demon influence and it's not Xantinya.   I was very confused because well I didn't know I was a human. I still don't know if that's true. It's what the girls and Damaschini found in an old book in the chest. I thought it's a bunch of lies but maybe it's true.   I mean I thought about it and the book shouldn't lie. The chest is not stupid. It has smart books from smart people that maybe are my people. Right? maybe I'm the chest princess. If I am, I should trust my books...   Also, I know my mom had a soul or something, because I'm only half Circeks. So if she has soul she needs to be like a creature with souls. And maybe Circeks are not like orcs or elves or smth another race, they are still humans.   But then why the demon part? Well it seems a demon called "the insatiable lust" made us be Circeks. This demon sounds like a lot of fun, insatiable lust hihi. But they obviously meant it as a bad thing.   No wonder, they are all so frigid.... It took them minutes to admit that what Circeks do is bad - that they fuck men and turn them to animals. hm but what is worse, fucking them or making them animals? Well they come together so. I mean what's a hunt if the prey is not prey?   But it's true that it's different. Before I just had fun, now it's serious... I wonder what happens if I stop. Can I even stop? I should. They asked me to and I told them I will. 'cause I don't want to not remember things or hurt people that I don't want to hurt. But it's not fair for them to tell me that what I am is not evil, but what I do is, when what I do comes from what I am!   They gave me some kind of story to explain it. If Nixie has long ears as an elf and you would say long ears are bad then you want her to cut them, and she's less of an elf because she cuts them, that's what I said. but then they said what if having long ears hurt the others, then Nixie would do it herself to protect them and it would not make her less elf.   And I don't know. I guess it sucks that I have to do stuff to protect others. Xantinya said I should not care that much. Any care will just become pain of some sort or the other aghh but it's true that I don't want to harm these people. And now Damaschini tries to teach me something called "ethics" which is like what the Almighty says we should do and how we should do things. So we can be good people, not demon-humans.   I love demon-humanssssssssss because we are our own brand <3 why be boring Ionolio-human instead. I told them I have to think about this whole mess. I don't know what I should do, they said just take it in but.... Should I do something? They want me to be calm and not you know hunt anyone. Alright but.... I really really wanna.   They even teased me with their stupid bathhouse. I said they are frigid but at least Nixie is a secret perv I can feel it. She got into a random bath-fight with the big blue girl Xixi and ran butt-naked all over the room from her and they wrestled and stuff and all. But then she told the story of how she lost her "fiance" to the war. What is this "fiance" thing, it doesn't make sense. If you wanna marry someone, why promise instead of doing it? If you don't wanna marry them, don't promise! Anyway, Nixie had this secret lover and he died many years ago so now she's still kinda sad. Still, no reason to not go for other boys (or girls I guess, not my thing), I mean if he's dead he won't mind. Plus we already got to see your tits bouncing you are what the Elves call peurd perud preud prude.   Also Tallion probably spies us through the door, I bet he's a perv too.   And they judge ME!   Ahhh but I can't take this anymore, it's no fair, I wanna. I gotta keep distracted, right? I trained a lot, very hard, I had to fix mistakes. My moves weren't all that good, now I need to find better moves to win always. I can't lose. If I lose then I'm not good at fighting, and if I'm not good at that at what am I good? At fucking but I can't do that it seems agh it's so frustrating!!! I'm sure any one of them would like to they just won't say it but if they do ask I won't say no because I didn't start anything they did, right?   Alright alright I can stay cool, I have to train.   Training sucks! I can't focus! I have to look the other way every time I meet with one of them or I swear I'll jump on someone. Except Tallion. Ugh!!! Gross. NEVER Tallion. Dillen yes, Drenizek I wish but he's no fun (I bet I can find his shtick too) I promised Marc so no Marc. So Dillen hehe He cute Oh enough I said I'll be good. I am good if I stay and write in this journal forever I can't go hunt right?   * * *   I heard we have to send Eve to look at the black hole so that she can send the message about the end of the world and fighting to all dimensions. Eve is very brave. I heard Bart also promised to marry her JUST MARRY HER DAMN WHY ARE YOU ALL SO WEIRD. also I hoped they fucked Eve deserves that   I don't get why Eve has to do this alone I mean I get it she has to send the message because she can talk to Lullaby somehow and she can then point her sword at the hole and somehow that gets the message through the hole. But..... It sucks that we can't do much. I don't want to leave people again to die. I think maybe I didn't get to do something nice. Eve was so happy when Bart gave her that ring and she is going to probably die.... I bet Bart was happy that he made her happy. How's that feeling? I kinda wanna know. I don't think I made people happy like that. That kinda sucks, it looks like fun stuff to do.   Is that what Damaschini keeps saying the Old guy wants? well then he sure did a poor job with the world, if Eve has to die like this. I don't like him or his world at all. No matter how much Damaschini wants to convince me.   * * *   EVE IS ALIVE she sent the message, they were all very shook but we did send it and wow it got like stuck in my brain we all felt it. It was a lot of stuff and I honestly don't remember like exactly everything but I remember what I felt seeing all that and it was somehow very very nice... there was war and fighting and even dying and a lot of running but there was like something good at the end of it you know like running and almost dying to reach that one last cart with fresh tarts on the streets of Qor... I miss Qor sometimes but it was lonely.   The chest feels nice. But we're not in the chest now we are in the spaceship on which we have the chest actually. 'cause we have to take care of poor Eve who got very burned her face melted off. and her eyes too she is blind now. And no right hand.... just like blue-girl Xixi. Poor Eve... She's a good human. I wanna do something nice to her but what do I know. I know how to make dolls but she can't see them now. I heard that xy people can make new eyes but it's not easy so we have to take her to some hospital-y thing.   I think I'd hate not seeing. It sure sucks. I would not see the faces of anyone. How can you see if they smile or not? They will always have to tell you, and that's just bullshit. I like seeing. I just hope that ionolio-humans can see with magic or something, maybe at least that.....   Journal I think I am fine for now. I am sad a little but also I feel a little better than before, I don't know how to say.   I know! From now on when I look at Eve I will smile, always, so she will know when I'm smiling because I'll always smile.   Goodbye journal  

Hi journal I found out I maybe am a princess of this cool chest with all the artifacts in it, can you believe I maybe have all this cool stuff that's just lying about!? Yea, crazy. Well I found out I maybe am because things open up for me, so the chest must know something... but we can't now for sure yet. oof.   But actually there's more, a lot of stuff happened. We spent a lot of time in the chest because we are travelling to the black hole, it's a hole and it's actually purple, and it's not even a hole actually it's a big ball of xenatine. Why call it a black hole then, pfft. Anyway, we took the Evo Drive ships they use to go fast to places. We are inside the chest so no one knows about us.   I don't know if I want to go back or... things were easier when I first got into this land. Damn Commonwealth guys though... I wonder if they'll come after us. I mean for sure, they know about us all. I bet they will be waiting somewhere. They can't track me with their weird small tracking things, though, because the Orshags swept me clean of any of them when I was in the hospital. Not that they can track us in the chest... can they?   I'm not sure what the chest is. If it's mine, I should find out. I always take good care of whatever I have. Thunder can vouch. Except my scythes, oof. They got broken. But they had xenatine on them and xenatine wasn't good at all. Good thing I have a pair of new cool scythes now.   Now, after the strange meeting with the robo-Elf people wanted to talk about how to spread some message through the black hole and into all the worlds. There are 9 worlds actually, each with their own Earth and stars and stuff. And we can reach them with a message using this black hole, apparently, but no one had a clue how. And maybe Lullaby had a clue but she can't speak or think. So to find out more they decided to have Eve search her mind or something. They were talking about really complicated stuff, planes of reality they call them, like the 9 things that make up everything.   I mean I think I have the main idea, it's not that hard. Whatever I look at is just 9 things one over the other. Like my hand is what I see when the 9 stuff are placed one above the other. If the 1 layer with magic is bigger, let's say, then I'll see a magic hand (I wish). It's not that hard. What's hard is to figure out what to do with that, I guess. But I don't know about sending messages or entering Lullaby's brain. Also, why does everyone invade Lullaby or her child? Weird, very very weird.   I actually don't want to write about it. I don't like how I was there when Bajid died, but didn't even remember. If I have a soul, I have a bad soul. Better to have no soul at all. But if I have a soul why do I feel the urge to hunt? It's no fair! Others don't have to fight this kind of stuff. And why fight it? It's me, it's who I am! What's my problem that Xantinya kills them? I didn't kill them! Right?   *smudge*   I don't like writing words like this. If they are only in my head I can't see them, they can't hurt me. Ah but then when the girls or Damaschini will ask me again I won't know what to say! They press me to say what I think what I want why I stay. I don't know. I have nowhere to go! Even if we were back in our world... Go where? Back to Xantinya? I don't want to go back to Xantinya. She seemed fun. But now everything hurts. And it's her fault. Well, my fault. It is my fault. I am a bad... everything. Even a bad Circeks. If Circeks have souls, maybe they ... I don't know, have some purpose. I mean I like to do my Circeks stuff, but ... why isn't it enough?   And I don't know, stay with them? I... Damaschini.... I... Is Damaschi.... I don't know! I don't want to leave him now. But I can't feel good here. If I'm Circeks they fear and hate. If I have a soul, samesies. I mean I killed a lot of people and I'm not gonna cry for it. I am what I am. A very good assasin. Hah! I like that. The thrill of hunting down your prey, the scream of the enemy falling. I can feel it coming back. I need to hunt again. Soon. It's hard not to look at them.. that way.   I can't stay here. I will want to do what I do. They will stop me. I'll go mad. I can't live without it! I can't do stuff to upset Damaschini again. Maybe he'll leave again.... Maybe it's better if I leave. I ruined their thing. Even their chest. They were better without me. I come and I ruin everything...   I could go back to Weldyn. Thunder waits for me, and Haldric will not throw me out, right? Maybe Xantinya will. She didn't tell me to kill them, but I bet she won't like when I'll tell her I didn't.... I'll disappoint her too.   Fuck them all. I wanted to write something fun in here but I can't! Fuck this all I can't even write about how I discovered I maybe am a princess of the Chest, name Kataria, I have to write about how I feel right and I feel bad, super bad. I can't stay here I can't leave I can't do anything. I wanna hunt I wanna be me but who is me!? I wanna be nice to them but if I fuck and kill them that doesn't sound nice right. So. I can't be me if I'm nice? Was I nice, like ever?   We made a room for Lullaby's son who is not born yet. For when he will be born. They didn't really ask me, even if I am maybe princess of the Chest, but I'd say yes anyway, I want Lullaby to have a baby room in my chest, I could give her all the Chest if she needs... I can give the Chest to them anyway, I don't want all these rooms. But no one wants me to have the Chest so they pretend I don't have it so no point in thinking about it...   I mean it would be cool to have something you know. Like a big thing, rooms and stuff in rooms. Many many things many people want. It's cool to have scythes and a sack but it's much cooler to have many stuff you can give to people and see those people smile and thank you. Because maybe some people will give stuff back or maybe you can guilt trip them or maybe they actually are glad and will say thank you and be nice to you and they are nice people who deserve a room or an artifact. And I could do something nice, right?   But Nixie doesn't want me to have the chest. She is smart, she knows I wanna make her say "Miyun the chest is yours" so she twists my words. She's captain so she has the chest now. Fine. But when she said she wants to destroy the automatons I was mad. Why destroy my friends?! They protect the Chest and they are my knights! I always wanted knights! Like Haldric has those black ones with big curved swords, who ride on dead horses. They are sooooo powerful they can chop a horse's head with like a twitch of the wrist. The automatons are prettier, 'cause they are not red-eyed or riding undead horseys. Aaaand they can rebuild each other so they never really die! Cool knights for a cool princess, right?   So I won't let Nixie destroy them. Hope I can become princess of the Chest by then. And even if I'm not the princess of Kataria or whatever, I still don't want the automatons to die. They just protect the Chest. It's not their fault we move stuff around! Maybe they'll like it. Maybe I can convince them to let Nixie's garden, for example. Which is very nice. Or the baby-room for Lullaby. I would like these two to remain like this. The rest can go.   Oh so I was writing about the thing with Lullaby and her mind. So Eve had to enter her mind because she was closest to Lullaby. Eve looks like a very nice girl but she's so tired and grumpy all the time, I heard it's cause of a demon. Demons really hate them it seems. Eve fell asleep with Lullaby and her sword by her side and the rest said we should pray because Eve would now travel into Lullaby's mind and try to put some questions in her mind to see what memories she could find which answer the questions. Fair enough. It's how the spirit works, yes yes the soul. If I have one then that can be done to me as well? Scary.   Still Eve is a nice girl so I wasn't afraid. But pray...? Like to the Old Man? For what!? So Lullaby won't be hurt they say, because maybe some memories would be bad and Lullaby must stay calm so she doesn't wake up and lose her child because demons and stuff. I felt like in Redochia. When demons attacked Liaryia and Nerissa. Well they did attack all of us at the beginning ha. I said I'd scythe them. Well I scythed mages and monks.   Why do I kill these people? Maybe I should kill others? I can't turn back. That's hard. It's hard to think maybe I was wrong maybe I had to kill others. I know I have to kill something, right? I am Miyun I kill. It's super easy when you say it like that. But kill what? Damaschini? no. Tallion? no. Nixie and her crew? No. Then? Demons? I can't kill demons. Plus they are not the ones that put me here it's the Old Man and his stupid rules and his hate for monsters like me! They created me so they can mock me? ughhhhhhhhhhh but demons attack Lullaby and Eve and they attacked Liaryia and Nerissa too. I don't know. I can't be enemies with those who hurt my friends if I don't... I don't know, it's not simple! Ok if someone hurts my friends they are my enemies. But when friends hurt me...!? What then!? And if enemies also help you...? I don't know. World is not simple and they keep saying "hey Miyun just pray" or "Hey Miyun the Almighty loves everyone that's what he says don't you see?" No I don't!!!! I never felt some Old guy from the clouds loving me! He could come in my dream and say "Hey Miyun I love you!" But no one said anything. "It doesn't work that way" will say the big tall Tallion. Fine, it works that I have to be a well groomed human who never swears and fucks only after marriage, like Tallion. Who is not married, go figure. Then I'll be loved by the Old man. Why?   Anyway, I didn't want to be coy or mean about it. Lullaby and Eve were maybe in danger, and everyone was very serious, and I already had enough of their looks when I say anything about their precious Oldman, so I stayed with them and .... prayed? It wasn't that hard, to be honest. I mean you want a nice thing, what's to feel bad about, right? I wanted Eve to be fine and Lullaby to not have ugly memories come back in her mind. So I asked Old man to take care of them at least, they are human and are good and proper. Help them then.   They were fine, and Eve actually dreamt she was Lullaby and came with these new stuff about planes of reality and how you can imagine stuff and use your body to help you imagine stuff better. And how you have to see or feel things in any way with some details so you can manipulate them. And then they started arguing because Nixie was unhappy with the result, she wanted something more clear about the black hole and Eve went angry and went to her room with Lullaby.   I wanted to write more about the orb they discovered in the Chest but I don't like that moment. Damaschini and Nixie were mad at each other because they found an orb that says what your deepest desire for the past and for the future is, and Damaschini wants to use it and NIxie doesn't and Damaschini said I won't listen to you and Nixie said listen to me cause I'm the captian I want you to not look into the orb and that's final, or something like that.   They were both very mean and I don't know why they like to argue but oh well... I went to check the orb and wanted to see the future. I thought maybe the orb could help me see what I wanted. But it was all mixed up. I was with DAmaschini but killing him, I was with Xantinya but actually with their crew... I don't know. I don't know what I want, and even the orb can't tell what I want. That sucks.   Damaschini still doesn't understand, we are ugly to them. He said we're the new ones. Well why are we here in the first place? Maybe we should leave, just us two, and go... I don't know.... I wonder, did they make a tomb for Liaryia and Nerissa anywhere? Maybe I should go see it. Like dad made for mom. I remember that tomb. It was nice. I would sometimes leave a flower because I know dad left flowers, but back then I didn't know why people leave flowers. I asked the Elves in Legondol, they said we leave flowers because they are like nice thoughts, like warm thoughts, they are bright and coloured and beautiful and so the dead see how we think of them, and when the flowers die and wither away it means the dead are left with no warm thoughts and feel forgotten again so we need to come back and give them some more so they won't stay sad.   so maybe there's a tomb for them, and if not I'd like to make one... i'll ask Damaschini. But yea maybe we should just leavee. But Damaschini wants to fight Xantinya... I'm sick of this. Everyone wants to fight. uh I wanna fight too I guess. I just don't know what, yet. I thought the Old man. I fought him already. Bored. Or I don't know, sick. I don't know exactly. Old man is dying anyway. Xantinya is killing him.   Wonder who will be next to rule, Xantinya, right? That's why Nixie and crew want to stop her. Because they like Old man more than Xantinya.   Maybe they're both jerks, how about that. Everyone who has this much power is a bit of a jerk. Don't tell Haldric I said that, hah. He's not a jerk though. But Xantinya maybe.   Well, I guess I'll stay here for now. Damaschini says we need to give more time, we will fit in. I don't know. They want to help the Old man and take down Xantinya. I have to want the same. But I don't. But I don't know WHAT I want, so.... You see? I'm stuck. I can't leave, I can't stay I can't............ ahahhhhhhhhhhh I hate it   And soon... It's itching me. I need it.   I need my prey.

I write more and more now. I kinda like it. Maybe I can read later and think more clearly like “ah that’s why”. I just wanted to have some stuff written so I don’t forget. What if I go black again and forget all I’m doing, like that day on the dragon when Liarya died… I don’t want that again.   We went to the Zidith thing. I love this dimension it’s so so so big and every place is different. They call them planets it’s like the ground but always a different one. They are big balls in the sky and we travel from one ball to another but because they are big balls you don’t feel like you are on a ball. And they float in space which is well empty place like air, but even emptier somehow.   The Zidith thing was very scary, because of all the electricity. Reminded me of Nerissa dread-charging somehow. But then the Zidith thing was actually someone, an elf-looking robot who talked to Nixie the captain and then Damaschini attacked it because I think they were enemies… but I don’t remember having to fight big robot elves. I remember normal Elves but Damaschini helped those. They said that Xantinya and demons were like their parents…? Whatever, the Zidith was nasty and it left.   Then we left too because the huge building came crashing down on us, so we got into the chest again. Now some Orshag guy is carrying us to another place. We go to a black hole to send a message to the worlds. All of them. I don’t know, something about a fight. Against Xantinya probably, everyone is so obsessed with her.   I don’t understand it. They seem like nice people but they also want to fight everything that isn’t them, like demons. I mean look even they have children of their own, even if they are ugly robots. Actually they are not ugly, I just don’t like robots. They are strong and I don’t know how to kill a robot. I guess I don’t like what I can’t kill.   And then Nixie and Verfys wanted to talk to me. They wanted to help me with something. They said I’m not a monster even if I’m Circeks. But what I cared about was that they said I have a soul. Now normally I know better, but they said then that if my mother had no soul then how did she love my father, and I said but how do you know she loved him? And they said well you! ‘cuz I’m half-Circeks only. I know that because I can’t grow real claws and teeth. And until recently I couldn’t do the thing where I change my eyes. Now I know how because Xantinya taught me.   So they think my mother loved my father and that shows she was not an animal. So Circeks are not animals? That’s good ‘cuz I heard it’s bad to fuck an animal and I don’t want to think father was bad. Then I like him again. I missed liking him.   But if I have a soul then what about all I did? The Elves and Damaschini and Tallion kept talking about how you must do good things, and the big Old Guy decides what is good and what isn’t. So to have a soul is like I am his prisoner. Ugh. I have to listen to his orders. Maybe I shouldn’t have a soul. Souls suck.   The two girls also wanted to help me with hunting people. They said they will think of a way not to have to hunt or something. Like bring together my human and Circeks side. I don’t know. Xantinya taught me to be something that worked. Now I don’t feel I work…   I went to visit Marc earlier. I knew he was afraid of me and she likes the brunette more than me. He was gonna use the bathhouse so I waited for him in squirrel form as he prepared to enter the tub. He saw me and he freaked out so I turned into me again and just asked him if he though I was pretty. What’s the harm. Marc wasn’t even looking so I told him to look and he said he can’t so I asked him why. I’m not a child and he knows that, so why treat me like one. I asked him if it’s because he likes the boring brunette. He said yes but keep that a secret and that he’ll tell me a secret if I cover up and talk to him, and he’ll keep our talk a secret too. I said all right I wanna know secrets so I covered up with towels and listened to him.   So I promised to tell no one ever but you are just a silly book so I can write here if anyone reads this you will get scythed, I warned you. He told me secrets make one trust others more. He was cute to give me one. So he likes the brunette and they even fucked once, before a very big bad battle in the elf-kingdom. She was scared she would die and didn’t want to die alone. They are very good friends but never fucked after that, I think that’s dumb but I didn’t say. I asked him if she doesn’t like him back and he said he doesn’t know. I wanted to tell him he’s silly but I didn’t want to ruin the secret so I shut up. He told me to keep my mouth shut about this.   I asked him if he didn’t like Isbel would he fuck me instead but he said no like that, didn’t even think about it.. He wasn’t afraid. So I asked him why and he said he doesn’t do that with young girls and I was like but you said it doesn’t matter that I’m a child you said that when you said you don’t look at me, your reason was this Isbel girl now think if you didn’t like Isbel but no he said that even if he knows I’m not a child like others my age he will still treat me like he should because I have many years left to grow and so I called him a liar for lying that he didn’t want to look at me cuz of Isbel but he said he didn’t lie. I guess…?   But then he promised he would make sure Isbel doesn’t get any young guys so that I get them, and that was fine. I guess it can work that way… Marc is a nice guy. I like him. When I said I can tell others that he likes Isbel because that’s not the secret he told me not to tell he said ah yes but what you told me after I told you the secret wasn’t part of the deal! I did try to seduce him a little after, maybe… ok, he got me. He’s not dumb.   So now I’ll have fun. Because I don’t know what they will do but it can be fun. I like when people like each other. I don’t like when people hate each other. That sucks. Like Tallion always grumpy and Cato killing people and hurting Kira and Damaschini not talking to anyone. I like people who like people.

I'm watching the weirdos in their chest-palace. they have so many chambers here it's so fun and there are even some tunnels of some sort you have to press a rune and it opens sometimes and they don't know about the tunnels. So i can sneak up easy.   they don't want to understand what i am so i will make sure they get it. thought about trying to get one of them, but no. they saved me, even if i attacked them. i can't be a jerk now... no/ i don't know. they are kinda weak, they can't even do magic here. but i don't want to hurt them i think.   Damaschini is making me new scythes. i don't understand. he's so cute with me now but where was he before/ he said he's sorry but why did he stay to build the golem and not look for me or nerissa or something. then again i didn't do anything good. i'm just as bad as damaschini.   Maybe I should try to be nicer. I don't like this. I can't kill them but I don't feel that this is normal. What am I doing here with them. they want to go to some thing called zidith so they can do stuff and stop Xantinya or something. Why does everyone get heads over heels with Xantinya I mean all right she's very beautiful and she does a lot of stuff but come on. Even Damaschini was so into Xantinya he didn't care about Liarya now Liarya is dead and he cares. he now cares about me too. and tallion is nice to me too, he tries to say circeks turn to squirrels, not that we feast on them after we fuck them and turn them to goats or pigs or something.   Maybe i will hunt them. Maybe not. not yet. soon i'll have to, anyway. I feel it in me. It's that fiery feeling again. bwah. I write something because I am bored. I had to hide from them so I can stalk them. But I don't want that, not really. I can't be all this. I can't be cute little Miyun writing in her journal, I am mage killer Miyun who hunted dozens of boys. Tallion was very upset when I told him I killed his Ionolians. I thought I didn't care, but I didn't like to see him so sad. He didn't want to kill me or anything. Just sad. Like a useless Ionolian... or no, i don't know. I know he can blast me. I have seen him. maybe he fears damaschini/ but i didn't feel fear in his bones. In fact he feels braver now. I don't like that I made him sad...   Maybe Damaschini is stupid and Tallion is an asshole, but they are... I don't know. Damaschini and Tallion. bwwaaaah why can't I just kill them all/   ***   Returned from more stalking. there are a lot of interesting guys in their group. it seems Tallion and Damaschini are not the leaders. It's this whiney elf called Nixie. She's very cute but always looks like she's afraid of something. She did freeze me in place in this world where they can't use magic so she must be strong too. Also the others follow her, except maybe the fire-girl Verfy who is very ferocious I like her, she could throw Nixie off a window if she wants to but she doesn't. they seem good friends. Nixie likes to hang out in her room and do stuff like painting I think/ I also saw her painting on walls. Is she mad too/ did she take some xenatine/ haha I remember when Nerissa snorted xenatine and started attacking us and her ugly undead attacked me and I got shanked. Fuck them. Nerissa was stupid but I miss her. She made the best soup ever.   I don't like watching Eve. she's this small girl who takes care of Lullaby. Lullaby is very sick or something, she can't speak or do anything really, just stand. cuz Bajid died and Xantinya tried to kill her baby and she had to open this dimension or whatnot to save her baby. I don't know, complicated stuff. And now she can't do anything and Eve takes care of her. Eve is nice, but she's very quiet. Except when she talks too much with someone, then she gets angry. but she's very cute with Lullaby.   I don't know... I don't like to see Lullaby like this. She was nice to me, gave me a cookie when I said I'm hungry. Also I'm sure she liked my gift of many nuts when I couldn't get her the car. Does she want to kill me/ when she starts talking again and moving on her own will she attack me/ I don't know. It does not feel good to know people want to kill you when you don't want to kill them...   They have many people in this group. Eve sometimes hangs out with this blonde guy named Bart, who is very cute. I think Eve likes him a lot because I can see she wants him but he's not that much into that I think. or are they together/ I think it's weird.   Also Nixie talks a lot with an old guy called Vas who is like a doctor or stuff, and with another elf called Anevys who reads in the weird language of the chest. the chest-language. she also has this very aloof face and is quite silent. Bah, elves. gross.   but they also have a Draek-thing with them1111 a big big fish-woman with the moving eye and rotating arms and all of that1 so coool. but she's smaller than i thought she should be. she also sleeps everywhere and usually sleeps all the time. maybe she misses the water. i sure do miss my hunt.   and then we have a bunch of dudes that usually train together in the armory with verfy. there's this badger-eyed swindler-face called Dillen who whoosh whoosh with his fancy pansy sword. I bet I can beat him in one second, no scythes. ok maybe a dagger. And there is also a guy called Marc who is red of hair and very funny, always bumps his head against stuff. he's very scared of me. i like to hunt him. he always runs, but he never wants to come closer... am I that ugly. or maybe it's because he likes the other girl... there's another girl with BORING hair and BORING eyes named Isbel and he always hangs out with her. She is BORING and that's it.   and then there's this quiet guy who has no weapons, Drenizek. But he hits hard with his fist. He's the guy who made the garden for Nixie. He's cute but he sulks too much, oh but he can sing so nicely. He doesn't care about my hunt. He looks me in the eyes then goes his way.   and then there's the woman with the big scar on her face. Kelly is her name. she comes from another world, like Lullaby, but not the same one. She sometimes wears a mask like the sylph used to do, but now mostly she doesn't. she has no nose. I wonder what monster she fought. she seems very very strong so probably a big monster. she also crafts stuff like Damaschini, but she's actually kinda scary, not because of the scar but because she doesn't seem to care about stuff. unless she wants stuff done, then that stuff is really done.   They seem like cute people. Nixie and Verfy try to find me. I wonder what their deal is. Verfy looks a little sad, and she's usually just hitting stuff in the training room. Maybe one day I'll play with her. she says do you like dolls like im 11 but im not but it's fine I can play something else. I'm not a small child anymore hehe I know play but not that no I wanna be nice to her. Actually scrach that she said come fight me like that's what i wanna do, screw her.   also why does nixie stay inside her room and draw on walls/ maybe she is too alone. she does talk a lot with verfy but i've also seen her talk alone one night when she thought she was alone but i was under the bed hehe. shh squirrels never hide under beds. they never check for squirrels under bed. big mistake. so she maybe needs a man. or woman.../ maybe she's with verfy, but it doesn't look like it. sad.   in general this chest is kinda sad. oh well. eh im bored now gonna go scare marc some more. bye

Dear Haldric,   I hope this letter finds you well, your Majesty. I didn't think I'd write something but things happened and now I have time...   I reached Damaschini. I didn't kill him. I told you I wanted revenge but he and his new friends froze me and didn't let me, then the xenatine almost killed me but they cured me or something. So I couldn't be nasty and still want to kill them, no?   You told me we must always punish betrayals, or it will never stop hurting. But it hurts more killing him. what do I do now/ I could go away, could I/ im in this chest well it's hard to explain it's a chest but actually it's a palace inside it and it's very old i think and Damaschini and his people live here. i don't know why but i feel good in this chest, it's cozy of sorts. and when i touch when of them rune things it sometimes does something.   I know Damaschini was an ass to you and betrayed you, but don't worry I'll make him apologise. I don't want you to kill him. He's not a bad guy, he's just stupid sometimes. Like he liked Liarya but didn't say anything until after she died.   Do you think I should punish him still/ He saved my life. And he's like Damaschini... I can't. told you. even Tallion the magic spewing guy he is not i don't know i don't feel he's an enemy, I can't cut them down. Even these weirdos that are now with them they don't seem like bad people. They don't hate me, even if they shot me. I can understand being scared by me. hehe. Maybe I want them to be scared of me.   Hope you are doing fine. I know you like Xantinya but I think sometimes she's wrong. I wanna tell her too what I feel because I am confused but I am afraid she'll just do some weird shit to me again.   I don't know when I'll return to Weldyn, but I hope Thunder is doing fine, please pretty please make sure he gets walked and he likes carrots too please give him carrots. I'll be back maybe with cool stuff from this place. See you soon your Majesty   MIYUN

Hey, I have to say goodbye to this place, cuz we are going back in our world. The one with magic, I guess. I don't know, to me they kinda look the same in the end. But this world has cool stuff, like phones and cars. And Damaschini keeps telling me I have to leave it behind. Ugh At least I can take my book. I don't rly like books. They taste bad too (Tried with Tallion's). But this is fun. I want to scythe Tallion. But I said I won't kill him. Yea, I don't know how. He did a woopsie too. Something with Lullaby's book. Again. And Nerissa came back from her travel and she's still scared of everything. And then she was gone and we had to save her. And Tallion too, of course. Always. Sorry, Pullius. Hihi But it's weirder with Mazo... or Evhai. I don't know who's who. Mazovhai. ye. We'll call them Mazovhai. Mazovhai did something like challenge a demon or smth and made the demon fight with the soul of Lullaby's child...? The one she has like pregnant or how's it called. And I don't rly know how that works cuz I don't know where the child is. Is it very very very small? I think so. Anyway, the child beat the demon, which is more than Tallion did. Or me. I'm not a child any more. Maybe I should beat more demons. But demons can't get scythed. I need like some spirit-scythe maybe. Hm. But not all demons are that bad. Only the ones that hurt Liyaria and Damaschini and everyone. Is Xantinya a demon? I don't know. She is fun. But we agreed to leave each other alone. If we burn Ionoliaaa.     I won't kill Pullius. But maybe I'll burn Ionolia. Hehe

I hate titles. It's for people who read. Like Pullius. Today was a good day. I think. Dunno rly what a good day is. I sold all these phones to people. So easy. People are not bright. Not so dumb as people in Qor. Still dumb. I don't like their clothes here. The big glass building had better ones. Here only nasty stuff. Is like Alomir. Boring... But when I return everyone is everywhere, I don't understand why, something happened to Liyaria and Nerissa, they were dying but now they are not dying. I guess we're all dying, or smth. Cato said we all kill, or die. Can't remember. Cato was dumb too. I'm glad they are not dying. I don't like dying. I like Liyaria. I m Nerissa is eh she ok. I will hit her one day. I get even. Sorry Nerissa. Love you. Now we are all ok so probably they wanna leave again. They never do anything right. That's why we are dying. Ugh. I have to go back and sell that car. They still think it's mine. I need money for it, book. The big thing. Hihihihihihihihi   Bye book!

I see Lyaria is writing stuff so let's write stuff. I don't know what I wanna write about. Ugh this is boring. Damaschini only does scythe stuff. Or talks to Lullaby. Or the girls. Talks with too many girls.   Lullaby is nice. She gave me a cookie when I told her I was hungry. Not food. Hehe. She's smart.   Hope she doesn't find out I stole that silver stuff.   Eh.   She's a queen .They have stuff like that anyway.   Hope something happens. I hear demons are coming again. I'ma beat em.