Kærasti
i count the scars on your shoulder and lose track because i am greedy. i want to collect every piece of you and press them into the small spaces of me that never learned patience.
you give me warmth with your sigh and i keep it like a stray spool in my pocket. something small and lucky and entirely mine. i press it into my palm when no one is looking, i press it into the hollow of my throat when i run out of words.
i hold this love in my sternum. it rattles against my ribs and leaks out sometimes when i laugh too hard. i never learned how to carry something beautiful without bruising it a little. never learned how to love without trembling hands and too much anger slipping through the cracks.
there are mornings i wake up so full of you i have to sit still, or i might spill all over the floor. all over the sun. all over anyone lucky enough to be flooded by this. some days i am all hands. all mouth. all trying. all reaching. all weaving small shaky threads back to you with whatever clumsy tools i have left.
some days i am just a chest splitting open. i hope you'll catch whatever falls out. i hope you'll gather up the mess and tuck it behind your ear like something worth keeping. you look at me and everything inside me rearranges itself without asking. shifts into softer shapes. spills into open hands. grows bigger than my body can hold.
i am better this way. better ruined and rebuilt and blooming under the weight of it. carrying this love not because i have to but because i was always going to.
Kjartan's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Coyote's Cry
28 Apr 2025 05:17:11
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Blood Ties
23 Jun 2025 08:18:36
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Kærasti
06 Aug 2025 06:35:57
28 Apr 2025 05:17:11
23 Jun 2025 08:18:36
06 Aug 2025 06:35:57
The major events and journals in Kjartan's history, from the beginning to today.
Kærasti
i count the scars on your shoulder and lose track because [i]i am greedy.[/i] i want to collect every piece of you and press them into the small spaces of me that never learned patience. you give me warmth with your sigh and i keep it like a stray spoo...
06:39 pm - 06.08.2025Session 9: Shifting Tides
07:46 pm - 31.07.2025Session 9: Shifting Tides
09:04 pm - 22.07.2025Session 8: Thread Bound
09:03 pm - 22.07.2025Session 8: Thread Bound
09:03 pm - 22.07.2025Session 7: Stormcloaks Reckoning
05:30 am - 10.07.2025Session 7: Stormcloaks Reckoning
01:23 am - 10.07.2025Blood Ties
The unfair proximity of a dream There is no ravenous spirit like that of the grief stricken, no vicious hollow like the insides of a boy searching for his father. I did not ask to be this. This hideous creature of scarred skin and snarling voice. T...
08:19 pm - 23.06.2025Session 6: Blood and Water
05:04 am - 12.06.2025Session 6: Blood and Water
11:24 pm - 11.06.2025Session 5: A Ballad of Treason and War
12:17 am - 07.06.2025Session 5: A Ballad of Treason and War
09:44 pm - 03.06.2025Session 4: Family Dynamics
12:01 am - 24.05.2025Session 4: Family Dynamics
09:49 pm - 20.05.2025Session 3: Herald and Lash Enemies to Lovers?
09:48 pm - 20.05.2025Session 3: Herald and Lash Enemies to Lovers?
11:04 pm - 06.05.2025Session 2: Thunder and Lightning under hounds of Halstein
04:40 am - 01.05.2025Session 2: Thunder and Lightning under hounds of Halstein
11:43 pm - 30.04.2025Coyote's Cry
there is a starved coyote gone feral in the back of my throat. it is so angry at the world and the hands that feed it, and when i open my mouth it barks barks barks and it scares everyone away....
05:17 pm - 28.04.2025Session 1: The Assignment
01:38 pm - 24.04.2025Session 1: The Assignment
01:38 pm - 24.04.2025The list of amazing people following the adventures of Kjartan.
Social
Birthplace
Caelin
Current Residence
Halstein
Contacts & Relations
Viggo Sigrid
Herald Frock
Desta Sigrid
Kjartan Isak
Judith Isak
Alexei Isak
Honorary & Occupational Titles
Captain, The Coyote