Private logs of Ehoc

-Personal log entry #06543- It has been 10 months and 4 days since my last entry and much has happened since then. Ivy left. She… there is no hope of her return this time. Fenrir is also gone, I backed him up in a corner and made him choose between the Ordo and Vexe. He made his decision, it is my fault he is gone, but I had to think about the safety of everyone else. With the loss of two of my closest allies and friends I found myself in an unstable state of mind. I was unsure of what to do and whom to trust, I tried to gather myself on Dosuun, and keep going but I was too weak, too broken. I am unsure what my departure may have done to the Ordo. It was not right for me to leave Fia in charge alone, I only hope she can forgive me my betrayal, although I understand if she cannot. Hopefully she will see, my gift should help her I do not want to lose her.   It is almost time. I finally understand my role in the universe. The cost was… painful, but I have embraced it, everything has changed….. -End Log-   -Personal log entry #06544- I examined another lost site today. It is still strange to view the world with my eyes open, although I am getting used to it. There is still time, a part of me wish I could warn them… But it would change everything.   When the day turns to night and the shimmering soul of the universe is exposed, they will understand. -End Log-   -Personal log entry #06545- We have determined that the Cradle of Eternity must have been damaged beyond repair. It is uncertain what exactly may have caused it, but the fact remains the same, it is locked out of the network. Determining the status of the Cradle will be one of my primary concerns upon my return, the knowledge and power it contains needs to be preserved. We have speculated whether the facility has remained operational, it was constructed to function separate of the network. If so the implications are profound. I will require assistance in determining the status, and if possible reactivation of the Eternity program.   It is strange how time can pass yet remain static, I understand now, how everything becomes disconnected when time no longer serves a purpose… -End log-   -Personal log entry #06546 Circumstance has forced me to relocate Lilith and Torin. I do not know how their location was discovered but I will honor the memory of those who gave their lives to save them. I retrieved them this morning and will be relocating them soon. He told me they would be safe in the care of his children. I believe him, I have seen them for myself in the Cradle of life, it is aptly named. Alas this means it will have to remain a secret for now, the Templars cannot know, not yet.   I wonder if she knows… and would she understand… -End log-   -Personal log entry #06547- I received the gift today, my mind is reeling from the ordeal. The process will take several months, and I think that is all the time I have until I am alone. He is leaving, but I do not know where to. Everything is different here, there is no destination, no concept of time, space or movement. This knowledge is dangerous, if nothing and everything exists at the same time…. How will I explain this to the others. For now, I have decided they do not need to know yet.   I can feel the change inside, I hope part of me survives. The blinding shadow lurks in the corner of my eyes… -End Log-   -Personal log entry #06548- Spread across the 7 axis. It contains all that is and was. Terrifying or comforting I do not know which... -End Log-   -Personal log entry #06549- A reply has been received. The burst was noticed and the guardians yet lives. Our plan must be adapted to accommodate for this unforeseen event. We believe they will be an asset. I however am unsure. I can feel myself slipping away, but I am still here, and able to protest. He may have age and knowledge on his side, but his capacity for creative and critical thinking has been diminished. Or perhaps I am in the wrong? This place is messing with my mind, where does it end and I begin… is there a line anymore…   I sent a message today, Raziel will know what is to come. I hope he will be able to keep her calm and safe. I know she is upset, running on her last reserves. I cannot blame her. She just needs to hold out a little longer. Raziel will have to be my ally in this, I know I can trust him, as he trusts me. His news of late has been troubling and confusing, but then he is one of the younger children. I look forward to seeing him again.   There are a few things left to take care of. Before the real work can begin… -End Log-   -Personal log entry #06550- It is hard to fathom that whatever I choose to do is destined to fail, at least partially. He has told me for he has seen it. There will come a time when Bogan is but a shadow of itself, suppressed and spread out amongst the creatures of the galaxy. The deception of peace and serenity will reign and bring the galaxy to the brink of destruction, yet no one will know of the dangers. However he has spoken of one who will break Bogan free and wield it in a torrent of terror and destruction, only to return the galaxy to a state of equilibrium. The son of non will bring true peace to the galaxy through blood and fear. The sages and oracles who have the gift to glimpse the naked truth of the universe will know of this, and the prophecy will spread. He seems envious of them when he speaks, having to construct his own means to have this ability, I do not understand why that would be a weakness. No matter, I should not dwell on the ever changing future, perhaps my actions will impact the flows after all.   My mind is less troubled, perhaps I am already lost… -End Log-   -Personal log entry #06551- Everything is in place. The final enduring test has begun for the Templars. The beacons are active. I am ready. I just hope she can forgive me.   It is time to go home. -End Log-   -Personal log entry #06552- It is done. The destruction is near total, we were prepared for that, it is as we expected. She knows I am different. The conflict is… corporeal to us, it is unfortunate. The young one is well, this is nice to witness. Another is born, unexpected, but welcome, I think .. yes a welcome occurrence. Wounds have been mended, the drain was substantial. I have withdrawn to rest.   Now I await judgment, may the balance give me shelter…. -End Log-   -Personal log entry #06553- Judgment has been passed. The struggle and pain is overshadowed by the light. She has once again let the living flame guide her. We are unworthy of the scorch that cleanse the taint.   Much to be done, much to be shared. He walks the surface, he still lives. In time he will come, but will he be ready? I am uncertain of his intent, I believe he is uncertain himself. She has proven redemption is possible for all, then perhaps redemption is possible for him too.   Anger and remorse is gone, we will meet him anew, perhaps for the last time... -End Log-