A letter to Caleon

My dear friend
i miss you every day
It hurts so much
To know that you're gone

I'm finaly free, Caleon
But now, i'm alone
So, what good is this freedom
If i can't share it with you?

It would be easier
To try and move on
But even if i wanted too
I wouldn't know how

Every night
I dream of your smile
And of your laugh
Then, i wake up crying
or brimming with rage

Every part of me
Wants to avenge you
But how can i do that
When i'm the one that killed you?

This guilt i feel
It's eating me alive
Making me sick
Of my own self

So, i wonder
Maybe i should let it go
Maybe i should just forget
Would you let me do that?

My dear friend
Are you mad at me?
Do you regret your choice?
If we could turn back time
Would you ask me again?

At least, i know this one thing
I gave you my word, a promise
And i will fullfil it
It's the least i can do

Because, in your last moment
You put your trust in me
So i could fulfil your dream
I will not let you down

I will go north
To see the dancing celestial lights
And the pure white snow
Hoping to make your spirit happy

And then maybe one day
I'll wake up smilling too